Sometimes I don’t even see the point of trying, life is so fucked up. I want to die, get away from everything, but I know if I do it will hurt alot of people, im now sitting on the side of the road, tryng to find the courage to get up and lie in the middle of it, as I sit here I can here familys in there houses, dishes banging, people laughing. I see the cars that drive towards me, and suddenly turnning not noticing that im sitting here the dark, I have no idea what’s stopping me from lying on the road, I want to die I really do, but I’m to much if a ***** to actually take any steps further. I wish the fear inside me would go away and just leave me and my soul alone, as I look up to the stary night sky, i see life without me a better world ,feeling the cold wind on my face is soothing, i want to be with god, away from the pain that I feel everyday..
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I feel the same way. However, even if you get the courage. things might not work out. And you’l end up wind brain damage or a severe concusion… hang in there and try to do the things that you like.
I’m only happy when it rains, I have a moon roof in my car and I will sit in my car and put my seat back and watch the rain splatter on the window. When it rains, I feel like crying. I know I don’t make sense. But you will be surprised that those people you in their houses only have this facade that they are happy, there has got to be something or someone in there that is in turmoil inside.
Hey Jess…
You are not a “*****” because you are not able to lay in the street; you are not able to lay in the street because something down in you has hope that things will change, that there is a point to all the hell you have endured.
It takes courage for someone to look at all they have gone through and still be able to see hope in the future. It takes a “*****” to lay in the street because life in not perfect. Everyone has their seasons of sunny summers and their seasons of brutal winters.
Those who endure their winters can come out either two ways: better or worst. The outcome is up to the individual.
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