I’m too old to be young and too young to be old. I just feel lost. Even though I am teaching college, my students hate me. I’m a terrible teacher. I have no friends. I go from work to home and then back to work and then, I have to take care of my daughter. I feel so awful about everything. The only reason I don’t kill myself is that I have a kid, and she would never get over that.
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How old is she? Also good for you for sticking it out for her. I sincerely doubt your students hate you and even if they do, fuck them. You should get some online friends. They’re better than real life ones because its much easier to fake sincerity.
My advice? Get a pet. Or go on a dating site. Learn to paint. Change something. And when that gets old, change something else. Get a tattoo. Get a fuck buddy. Become vegan. Work out. Tell your students to fuck off and give them a shitload of homework and then don’t grade it.
Hey,
i really need to tell you that us students can really be terrible at times or even all the time! We never pay our respects to great teachers or when we do it’s only becaause they resign or change schools. We never really like the cool teachers we mostly look for the one person that will manage to get the best out of us. But yes I totally understand that you are human and as everybody else you need acknowledgement ask your daughter how she feels about a good student or right down a poll in your classes of what help they are expecting or want, what they think they need. After all you are the teacher I think in the end you might know best what we need or what we are missing out on than we do. Don’t ever say you’re a lame teacher you make many people’s futures and that on its own should be a great reward. Please get to love yourself know your strengths i will not lie you will probably have to be vulnerable at first but i’m sure it’ll be for the best. And going to top notch private schools/colleges where students are the worst i’ve noticed your very first help reside in your collegues ask for help and maybe your social network mayjust begin to grow wider.
Don’t be that hard on yourself. Believe you me there are not many teachers/ professors that are even capable of admitting that they are bad teachers or are failing some where and those who do generally aren’t as bad as they think considering they always are question their work.
i think you are a loveable person. True I do not know you but I am sure this is just a fase and some time soon you’ll have a bright smile on your face that will bring the happiness you,your daughter and your kids need.