I really don’t know if I thinking is correct on this-but I know for a fact that I will try and kill myself in the next couple months. But I have two choices. I went through my mother’s medicine cabinet (she was in a car accident, never really recovered = lots of pills), and I could use those, but when I researched it, they fatality rates of overdose attempt is around 2%. Not the best statistics, if you ask me.
Or, if I wanted to, I could walk/bike/run the 4-ish miles to the railroad tracks and wait for the train and lay down on the tracks. The results of that approach were much more appealing than the pills. There’s a fatality rate of around 90%, which are better.
The problem with the railroad tracks is that I would be terrified of messing up either way. Everything I had built in order to make my parents believe I’m their perfect little girl would be utterly destroyed. If I survived the train, then I would surely be stuck with disabilties, making my life worse. I know I would have a better chance with the train, but I’ve always thought that when I kill myself, I would take a bunch of pills, and blissfully float away. If anybody here has tried to OD, please tell me what it’s like.
I really do need someone to help me through this, and I actually mean it. If I asked someone I knew, then it would be horrifying and give me away. I honestly plan to follow through and kill myself, I have thought it through and it’s the best for everyone. I hate my life, there’s no point, and it’s not like anything is actually going to matter. Would a large cocktail of lisinpropyl and diphenhydramine, along with misc. other pills, work? And how long would it take to work? I really need the answers, I can’t find them, and I need them.
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I think those medicines would never give you a death, taken without other actions.
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please dont i know exaclty how u feel if anyone understands it me i know i wanna die to but the thing is that we now have this and we can find people that get it that feel the same way to be around and talk to or anything…so please write to anyone me whoever i’d love to hear from you!
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I took one about a year ago. I didn’t research it. I took 50 paracetamol. It was fucking horrible. I didn’t go into a coma or anything, was just violently sick for about 8 hours. I was told that if I had taken enough I would of died one of the most herrendous death’s possible.
Maybe some drugs for overdoses have different effects I’m not sure. But don’t do it. If I had a gun that would’ve been the easiest way possible, I still want to do it though. If I lived in America I would definetly have gone the gun route a long time ago, but guns are very hard to come by here.
i would love to help you..you can contact me anytime….
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YOU CANNOT KILL YOURSELF! I promise that life will get better. You need to talk to someone. It’s heartbreaking to hear that you are such a sad girl. Death is final and you will never have another chance to make a better life for yourself or experience happiness, which will happen. Life is what you make of it. You can email me at meljmil@yahoo.com if you want to talk. If not, please find someone that you can talk to. Nothing is ever so bad that you should end your life. This is temporary. You may need to see a doctor and get on some anti-depressants. Please try everything before you make such a drastic decision.
from the way i hear it your not on the path to being low class lazy jerks. you sound like a good person who can and will be helped. think about it. would you rather live and work hard and become a person who people will admire . or will you just kill yourself and destroy everyone around you while you become that person you think you are now. live your life. their is always hope.