I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve had these feelings before and they never ended up very positively. Â I just cut myself and it wasn’t enough. My life is just headed downwards and I don’t have the energy to change things. I haven’t left the house all week, except to go to the bar and get drunk. I finally showered this morning because I have to go to work. I’m disgusting. I need the strength and courage not to buy pills today after work. I have a feeling I will. It’s like uncontrollable. I don’t want to live like this anymore. 🙁
ETA: I really don’t want to hurt my friends and family, but I just can’t help myself or how I’m feeling.
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i’m sorry jenny :{
life is really stupid sometimes.
or most of the time…it really depends on how things go.
please don’t despair… you really shouldn’t. there is always hope – because of God. there is no hope other than Him.
please let me try to help you. everything will be alright, but you need to know how to accomplish this. please talk to me. my contact info is at skull09.net
please always take care of yourself, and thank you for reading
Dunno if this is any use for you, but for me these things have helped:
1) Sharing a flat with someone (i.e. no longer living alone).
2) My counselor telling me to go gentle on myself, instead of being hard on myself.
3) Keeping a diary.
4) Helping others a little (just giving a beggar some coins once in a while or something).
Anyways, whatever you do, I wish you all the best. You sound like a nice person. If you feel like it, you can mail me at: muspelhem@hotmail.com.