I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve had these feelings before and they never ended up very positively. Â I just cut myself and it wasn’t enough. My life is just headed downwards and I don’t have the energy to change things. I haven’t left the house all week, except to go to the bar and get drunk. I finally showered this morning because I have to go to work. I’m disgusting. I need the strength and courage not to buy pills today after work. I have a feeling I will. It’s like uncontrollable. I don’t want to live like this anymore. 🙁
ETA: I really don’t want to hurt my friends and family, but I just can’t help myself or how I’m feeling.