i’ve never been so angry… i was the one bringing her down.. until i started to really care. i wanted things to work like she wanted them. i realized that i really love her. and then this fucking bullshit happen.. we fought. we broke up. i was sad that she was gone, but still she was scared of me. then i find out she fucked him.. and it devastates me.. i’ve never been so messed up in the mind. idk what to think. my heart is gone, my feelings with it. only two stay behind. to make things worse.. anger consumes me. i get so fucking mad i start shaking.. i think of hurting her. finding her and beat life out of her, just to understand my pain.. i think of killing him.. stabbing him,  over and over these things play in my head. i come close to it.. i come very close to doing the things in my head, the things anger is telling me to do.. i don’t, and it makes me furious. how can i be such a fucking *****.. to not do anything?!?!?! what the fuck is wrong with me?!?! i fucking hate her.. but i love her.. she asks if we could talk… and tells me that she loves me, shes sorry, and wants to get back with me.. it confuses me even more.. what do i do? anger still consumes me.. only despair grows stronger as well.. idk what to do..
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Take a deep breath my friend. Surely you’re not saying you think it’s okay to beat someone to death?? If you act on your homicidal impulses you will regret it forever. Your girl had sex with another man, now your feelings are hurt… so what? Find a healthy way to deal with it like the rest of us. Ask yourself why you insist on being so insecure over this? Maybe the guy really sucked in bed and now she knows how amazing a lover you are. Remember, it’s her life and it’s her body. You cannot control others. You aren’t married to her and she has no commitment to you. Your jealousy is dark and dangerous. It will destroy you if you let it. You must get your violent impulses under control or you will spend the rest of your life in prison with other men who go around stabbing people. Screaming and yelling and fighting are signs that you aren’t ready for the challenges of a healthy relationship yet. Put your hostile energy into working out, or go to the batting cages and slam baseballs, go for a good long run in the heat, do something physical and get the anger out of your body and mind. Then decide if you can handle this girl or not. Infidelity is tricky. You’ll hate her forever if she sleeps with another man but have no trouble rationalizing your own behavior when you do the same thing. If you love her then allow her to make her own choices in life, even as she allows you to do the same. Work it out or let her go. Life’s too short.
She is a person without values. Period. But that doesnt mean that you have to physically hurt her or him. It means that you must forget about that b*** and that is it. It was the wrong person. There is no return from that point. Also, you shouldnt have hung out with such individuals, so part of the blow on you is your fault. If you had chosen more decent persons, that would not have happened. So, grab the lesson which should be useful to make you more demanding when choosing someone and that is it.
All the other options that you are mentioning are rubbish and will get you into damn bad troubles, so forget about it.
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