I’ve been a member of this site for a while now, and really…I haven’t been on this page for about 5 months because I thought everything was going to be fine. Someone helped me stop cutting, I was doing okay at school. And then today, my stupid dad just…
My parents want me to stop going to school because we just can’t afford it right now…heh. It’s nothing new, I’m pretty sure tons of students are facing the same thing. It’s just that…I was going to be a junior in high school. I was so excited for everything, prom and thinking about college. And now, just 3 weeks before school opens, I can’t go. I can’t even talk to anyone about it right now because I’m home alone and there’s no one to call, to hug, to talk to…
I know it’s a stupid reason to be upset, because there are lots of people who have it worse. I just never thought that it would actually come to this point because up until today, my dad was assuring me that I could still go. I hate it. I feel so stupid for wasting so much time working so fucking hard to make money and to keep my grades up at the same time (my brother failed out of school last year, so the pressure to get even higher grades was just…sigh.) and it still wasnt enough. I’m really embarrased to talk to my friends about it because they’re all well-off and to be surrounded by people who have what you want is just so fucking TIRING. Feeling all these stupid emotions at once…lonliness, anger, stress, envy…I’m sick of it! I want to feel numb. I want to just sleep and never wake up, to fall off a building or drown and just end everything once and for all. Besides, that gives my family one less mouth to feed, I’m sure they wont mind. I’m tired of this crap!
I’m sorry for wasting your time…I just needed to vent…
3 comments
Maybe I’m missing something…but you have to pay to go to high school?
I know you are upset. But nothing should ever stop you from getting your education. You said you work, can any of that money go to your schooling? Maybe your school has a financial program you can look into? I’m probably sounding like an idiot because I don’t quite understand.
It’s hard to be surrounded by friends whose parents are much more well off than yours. I was always the broke one in my small circle of friends. But it’s temporary. I know how difficult it is being without. It causes so many other problems that people with money don’t even have to think about.
Yeah do you go to private school? I’m with jmslady_2183 you need a high school and college education these days to provide a life for yourself and a family. Keep fighting yo
You dont have to pay for highschool. Education is free unless you choose some selective private school. Not only that, also state universities are either free or really cheap. Also there is the distance education so there is no excuse. You have to get that education by all means. Write us back because that is not possible.
Rather I think what your father means, is that you have to work instead of studying. It is his responsibility to provide for the family and not put his underage children to work! Does he have some education? some college ? Well, you sure dont want to end up like dad. So, if he has put you now into working, which makes me angry, do not drop your books. Talk to your school and tell them you still want to remain connected and take some classes.
If you are American then there is no excuse. The education level in the States is laughable. Anybody with an IQ of 68 can pass any class., it is not like in Europe. So, do keep taking your classes, even if they dont let you go to presence classes, you can collect notes or read from books.
You must look ahead, do not limit yourself to Highschool. Do you think that getting a degree in law is hard ? bullshit. Aeronautical engineering maybe hard but that would also depend on what university, even in many universities that would be ok.
If you havent decided your studies, I would recommend Law. In the USA, because of the poor education standards, a lawyer is some kind of a god, and makes awful lot of money, (whereas is Europe is nothing). So that degree in law you can get it without ever putting your foot on the class other than to take the exams.
Dont quit!