I honestly in my heart feel life wasnt meant for me. I feel broken. I know i can not be fixed. Marriage, kids, a career life isnt for me. I know i’m broken. I just don’t know how long this misery will last for me.
I don’t know what to tell you other than I can completely relate to you. I entirely could have written this.
I feel like I’ve been broken for pretty much all of my life. My experience in life seems to differ drastically from everyone I know. I don’t know how I’ve managed to slip through the cracks. I don’t know how I find nothing enjoyable. I don’t know why I’ve never felt like I fit in in this life.
I want things to change but they never do, and it’s not for lack of trying.
So its like.. now what? Same here, i try to enjoy things but nothing makes me happy. Give me a million dollars and i wouldnt be happy, id get excited but then would come back down to reality and my state of mind.
Right.. “now what?”.. I have a career but it’s a struggle just to show up at work. I think to myself “why do I do this?”.. I’ve only been there for a few years and already feel fed up.. How do people work for 20-30+ years? It feels like I have nothing to look forward to.
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I don’t know what to tell you other than I can completely relate to you. I entirely could have written this.
I feel like I’ve been broken for pretty much all of my life. My experience in life seems to differ drastically from everyone I know. I don’t know how I’ve managed to slip through the cracks. I don’t know how I find nothing enjoyable. I don’t know why I’ve never felt like I fit in in this life.
I want things to change but they never do, and it’s not for lack of trying.
So its like.. now what? Same here, i try to enjoy things but nothing makes me happy. Give me a million dollars and i wouldnt be happy, id get excited but then would come back down to reality and my state of mind.
Right.. “now what?”.. I have a career but it’s a struggle just to show up at work. I think to myself “why do I do this?”.. I’ve only been there for a few years and already feel fed up.. How do people work for 20-30+ years? It feels like I have nothing to look forward to.
sigh..
I hope one day things get better for the both of us. Good luck