No one knows my true feelings.. I so bad want to write a status on Facebook or Myspace and tell how i truely feel so maybe someone can help me but they’ll all think im crazy and weak. I like scream inside wanting to post something for everyone i know, to know my true feelings. Does anyone else have this problem? Or have actually posted it?
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I have, as of last night…. I haven’t seen the full effects play out yet, but I can say it won’t turn out well. I know that much, and I wish I was in a better frame of mind when I wrote what I did. There is nothing wrong with feeling something no matter how intense, but social networking sites aren’t a good place to vent them, not because what you feel is wrong, but people in mass are judgemental creatures and will only fuel negativity. Consider talking to someone close, or more on a one to one basis. It might be hard but I can say from experience it feels less hollow than digital communication with a faceless entity…..
I end up making suicidal status updates and tweets all the time. Some people write it off as me simply being ’emo’ (god, I hate that word) but my actual friends/people I’m closest to know it’s a sign I’m spiraling downwards. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn’t.
People will think you’re crazy though. But I think it’s crazier stuffing one’s emotions and pretending to be fine just for appearances. Screw that noise.
So how do i let everyone know, who knows me, how bad im struggling on the inside? I dont want to come off weak or emo or looking for attention. By the way i dont have a life, i have more of a life on the social networks than anything. I pretty much am excluded and sometimes like to be, from the world. Thanks a lot for your reply.
well this is a good first step. Saying how you feel in a safe place is great, but you should have a goal of reconnecting to a non-virtual world, they might be real people, but when there is a screen separating two people it creates instant licence for people to be judgemental and cruel because in a virtual world no one can stop them, let alone give any kind of retribution. Personally I have disconnected from those around me so many times I’ve lost count, but after a while it stops being satisfying. I know from experience that someone’s life is defined by how they spend it, you can have more of a life outside of the internet if you choose to, no one else can choose that for you. If you’re excluded then just include people in your life, eventually it will work out if you’re proactive. Also anyone who sees that you’re in pain and dismisses as weak or emo is obviously an emotionally immature person and at the end of the day it reflects what kind of shallow person they are, or that they are trying to compensate for their own inadequacies.
I really Hope things get better for you (:
I think the only people you should tell are your parents alone, but only if you know there understanding and considerate of your feelings. Think carefully about how your gonna say it though. Good luck.
sorry, also try to think of their reactions first. If you think there gonna be hostile about it or think your crazy then I think it best to leave out the suicidal thinking and just tell them you’ve been extremely depressed and that you want to seek help.
did you want to seek help or just let them know? Cause I think either way they’d definitely force you to get help if they knew.
My dads in prison for life for killing my sister (yes his daughter) and i havent had any communication with my mom for almost 2 years. Shes an alcoholic who has a controlling boyfriend, im much better off without her. I dont talk to one single person in my entire family (moms or dads side). Thanks for trying to help tho.
@mychoice. I’m some cases te parent don’t send for help. My parents know I cut an havnt done much about it. It isn’t that teyre bad parents. I know they love me. But somtimes they just don’t know what to do.
But either way I agree you should tell your parents. Don’t le them find out the hard way. The longer you hide it the worse their reactions and shock will be because they’ll thing you don’t trust them enough.
I do agree, most people dont know how to react in my opinion including parents. my boyfriend of 2 years knows im depressed and talk about suicide but i dont think he thinks im serious. when i cut myself hell yell at me and then make me feel uncomfortable about it. he just doesnt get it but i dont blame him. if i hadnt gone thru the trauma i did i dont think i would have ever understood anyone who was severely depressed.
oops i dont know how this site works really.. i thought if i replied to a certain post that person would get it but i see it posts to the entire wall.
The second part was for cream702.
there are times when i just want to tell the world that i give up on life, but i know no one will really take me seriously so i don’t even bother.
Thanks a lot for the advice
As far as posting on Facebook, Myspace or the likes, I too think that to be a bad Idea. I agree that eventually, hopefully real soon, you need to discuss these feelings with a person or people face to face.
I do think it would be good for you to post your feelings on this site. Hopefully this could assist you in expressing what’s going on and in a sense, get you “warmed up” for discussions with “live” people. As you continue to post and read the comments you might begin to see and understand more about what has brought you to these feelings, along with possible solutions.
You are very free to express your feelings here, and I’ve seen and also received some very well thought out and helpful comments. There is some negativity and things you may not have wanted to hear, but that can come up anywhere. While the anonymity factor does lead some to comment in negative ways, hopefully you will learn to filter this crap out. But, in a most significant way for your situation, the anonymity factor here is very beneficial to your specific desires. You can very freely express your feelings, whatever they are, and finally begin to get these things out.
As far as anyone, at any time, thinking you’re crazy and weak – we’re all somewhat crazy and weak. All of us are also somewhat sane and strong. I call that a well balanced personality!
I wish you the best of luck!!
John
Thank you for your advice
Hello cream702
As far as I know, you can only post as you did with your “Facebook/Myspace” writing, and/or leave a comment on someone else’s story. They both will appear to everyone.
Wow! You’ve got allot going on. I’ve gotten to know allot of people with some pretty horrid stories (I mean face to face, not just the folks here). A common thread I’ve seen in many of them, is they ended up being such awesome people and much of this has been due to the horrid aspects of their life.
There’s an awful lot of energy derived from suffering. I believe that energy usually goes , for the most part, one of two ways. It either destroys our spirit or eventually infuses our life with stronger than ordinary determination. Knowing how terrible the ugly feels, we don’t want to stay in that type of environment, and hopefully don’t want others to have to feel that way either. I think life’s forces become a very positive energy with us when we are trying to better ours and other’s lives simultaneously. Of course we need to get our life moving first, but when done with the idea of sharing the beauty that comes into our life with other people, the mission of bettering ours and other’s lives has become simultaneous.
I really hope you’ll find it helpful sharing your life here and feel comfortable in opening up.