Life is so boring. It looks like it takes forever doing nothing, so here I am sitting bored as f***. I stumbled upon this site wondering if I could talk to the dead, what would be the quickest and least painful way to die. I am watching a shiny and sharp knife in the kitchen and I wonder how long will it take, how much force, and most important will it hurt a lot before I die? I grab my earphones and see if rhey can choke and put it around my neck wondeting if it’ll be quick. I look at all the ways to die. I also wonder how many people will actually give a sh*t about me or if they will put their status on facebook R.I.P. Nathan, and how long they will mouen before going back to their fun lives. I am a shy 15 year old whos never had a gf and my dad makes me go to a church that I despise it makes us not do anything fun like birthdays pr any holiday celebrations. My parents are divorced and my friends are assholes to me. I f*ckin’ hate them and one of them slammed my forehead into a locker and made me get a scar and they still think I am cool with them. I feel mixed emotions every day and mostly I sit with my hat and hoodie on and listen to music. I am a pessimist and agnostic and last night I started looking at suicide notes and started hyperventilating and had a panic attack. Anyone ever had one?