my heart bleeds

I use to be afraid to die .

                            How foolish was I.

I was stupid & young i loved life ,and people I was loved…i think .

             Im not affraid to die just of how i will i hope im asleep if i dont kill my own self maybe drink some poison,

right before i go to bed   it be peaceful no pain no crys  but where would i go heaven or hell , wouldf i be a Angel or a demon.

                 How  I wish I was loved  maybe I’d wanna live  if I was herd and not inorged .

    They all i think im cheerful  but if they really knew me they’ed know the truth   It finally hit me ,

   this year im not doing well at  hiden my  depression  i was told i dont ever look happy , and i’ve been ask whats wrong  words i  never hear from people in school.

                            Some one save me from this darkness and  land of  demons  and coldness   , please any one just  hold me 

 I want to live only so I’ll go to heaven  

                  I’d shoot the triger If i had a gun , I’d  step of the chair if i had a noose, I’d slide it from my left ear to  my right ear if I had a Sharp Knife.

       I want Heaven I crave Heaven I feel heaven I dream Heaven .

 

                                                                   Jasmine nicole C******