The balls to do it

I wish offing ones self was easier! Even with my physical suffering as fuel for the suicide engine…….I still get nervous even just thinking about putting the bag over my head or pulling the trigger on my shotgun. I guess I am just waiting until the straw that broke the camels back finally drops and gives me the balls needed to leave this life behind. So far I have everything…(no religious worry’s, plenty of suicide methods, etc.) the only thing I don’t have yet is the balls to take that final breath.