For the past 5 years of my life i have been suicidal and a self-harmer. It seems that my family and friends have all given up on me. I know they are just waiting for that day that they will have to go to my funeral. So why should i not just give them what they want? Recently i have stopped eating and have had horrible stomach and nausea problems, its not that i dont want to eat its just that my body doesnt want it. I havent been depressed for a while but i know where this is all leading. No one wants to talk to me anymore and i feel as if i am truly alone and i am just wasting their time. I try my haardest just to stay happy but it all comes back to this, I dont know what to do anymore.
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Kina believe it or not I’ve been in your exact position a couple years ago. You know how I got through it? I talked with someone.
And you may not think that your family and friends like you and trust me, I’m a self-loathing narcissist by nature, but I have discovered that people will surprise you. Not can, will. Trust me, give it a little time.
If you need someone to talk to, I’m available at JTfreeze1234@aim.com!
And I learned a couple lessons from those couple years ago: don’t try to be happy, just be. Enjoy the little things, don’t always look at the big picture and the stretches ahead, enjoy the peaceful and happy moments. Because really, that’s all there is.
You should check yourself. I think it is the other way, go talk to your family and if you can’t, fuck happiness, there’s more to life.
I rarely talk to my family as well and when i do it’s just fake and pointless..
I think for you maybe you should try focusing more on your life without them and then when you are comfortable talking try that.
It sounds more like a cry for help and you are reaching out to people maybe you have some friends you can talk to or someone you are close with?
I can talk with you on here if you want while i’m still here.