Focus on your ability to have fun, even if it was at a mental hospital. That’s a very good sign. People who kill themselves can’t find pleasure in anything or anyone. But you can. That’s a very healthy sign. Explore what else can give you pleasure and enjoy it and have more fun. Then have some more fun. And then, have some more fun. Before you know it you’ll be having so much fun that you’ll wonder why you ever wanted to off yourself in the first place. Now, go look for some fun!