OK, So I am really contemplating suicide. I really think I will be better off dead. I mean I am breathing now but dying slowly and painfully.
I am a very educated 47 year old woman. I am here writing because I have no one and nothing but two dogs. I have no idea how I got to this place but it does not feel good.
I am serious, I am totally alone. I have no one and I can see no reason to go on in life. My loved ones are deceased and I need to be with them. Some may say give it time. I am 47, how much more time?
I have a plan and I so want to go through with it, the pain I feel is horrible and I would never wish this on anyone.
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If you die, you’ll be leaving your dogs. Your dogs have souls. And they will be hurt if you leave and soon they will feel like what you are feeling. So give love. And receive love back.
Buy rose quartz and wear it around your neck as a necklace or another jewelry. It really helps heal the heart. I have a lot and whenever I feel lonely or sad or angry I put it around and it soothes me. Also, get another pet or buy plants. Find a hobby. Try to meet new people.
Please don’t die just because you’re lonely…
If you are educated, you can start teaching school too. And meet children and you’ll soon love them.
Brainiac,
I can assure you that you are not alone in feeling isolation in this world. Ultimately, we are all alone. Some of my loneliest moments were when I was surrounded by comrades, friends, and peers, and experiencing the realization that, no matter how close someone is, there is still a separation. I have only parents left in this world. Both are chronically ill. I look into the future, and I see a time where I, too, seem to have no connections to anyone or anything.
And yet, I would submit that, even as alone as you feel, you have found two people who, not knowing you, or where you’re from, or what you do, still understood enough of your pain to urge you to hold on. Since there are two of us, odds are good that there are others. Finding them can be miserable: I know. But you now know they exist.
That you have a plan is bothersome. Please, if you have anyone at all, call them. If you truly have no one you can trust, call a crisis hot line or 911. Those services exist to help you find your way through. You have a right to use them. You deserve to use them. Please do.
And write back here, later, and let us know that you’re still with us.
I am still here. I am not doing too good, but wanted to thank you for taking the time to write to me.
Brainiac I know how you feel, I’m 38 and my two dogs are all that’s keeping me here atm. I’m not as alone as you, but still very lonely and in pain…
Brainiac.. and all of the other lovely souls in pain,
I understand your pain and your loneliness. Eventhough I am surrounded by family and friends, I still feel all alone. But I recognize that YOUR loneliness is more painful. To be truly alone is hard… To believe that all you have are memories of loved ones is tragic. And yet, nothing lasts. Not happiness and not pain. With time..all will be healed. Including your lonely heart sweetie.
You know, we are never alone. God is always there. Always. He sees your pain and understands your loneliness. He knows that you want to join your loved ones and see them again. But, it’s NOT your time. God still needs you. Otherwise he would’ve ended it for you. So, hold on, wait and see what God has in store for you. Maybe what’s to come is so much better than what passed. I am sure of it.
Please hold on.. be strong and stay strong… Try to see the beauty of life and live for you and for your loved ones. They might be gone, but they are watching you and they want you to be happy. Don’t disappoint God. Don’t disappoint them. Don’t let yourself down.
I love you…
Wow. I am still here on earth. In a lot of pain but I am still here. I appreciate the time you took to write to me. Thank You. I am holding on I so want to be healed.
It’s dismal being a grumpy fusspot. Maybe we’re going about the solution all wrong. Instead of fixing it so we want to be alive we should consider fixing it so that it is accepted for us to be dead.
john suicide should be a civil liberty, one people don’t have to like but at the end of the day it’s still our choice and ours alone. But we should all try to get help first before taking that final, drastic step that we can’t undo…
I don’t see the inherent value in life. From a societal perspective as long as your debts are paid you should be able to wonder away from the misery of living as you choose. I don’t understand why there needs to be the intermediate step of trying everything else.
We live in a society that is still, by and large, religious. The monotheistic religions tell us that human life is sacred, that we are made in the image of god and therefore human life must be preserved at all costs. But I think it’s the height of arrogance to say that human life is more special, important or worth saving than other forms of life. That’s the sort of warped logic that has caused human suffering for centuries, driven many species to utter extinction and bought our planet to the edge of environmental collapse…
John.doe Who the fuck gave me a choice u want to try walking in my shoes ? Do u know what it feels like to loose someone to suicide!!!! If u did u wouldnt’ be so quick to make stupid, irresponsible comments like that!