Ever since I can remember my mother (who I’ve always called by her first name) and I have never got a long. Every day she picks me apart. I’m to thin, gained to much weight, I need to wear make-up, I have to much make up on, so on and so on. After over two decades of this you would think I would be immune to all this. But now I’m a single mom and I love my little child more then anything in this world. And sometimes I think if it wasn’t for him I could just end it all. Until lately where I find myself finding it easier to think about just giving up like she wants. I don’t in hopes that it might hurt some one (like my child) and couldn’t bare to do that. On the other hand… If I do give up and let every one know it is because of her, maybe then they will all see she just pushed me to much and they will be mad at her for once. That thought has become growing on me more and more. The only thing that scares me is what about my child?
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You have a right to be here.
You are perfect just the way you are.
Please reach put to someone you trust and
Let them know you need help.
There is hope, but you have to tell someone.
God bless you.
I lost my son last month, because he had many
problems. He just gave up.
He never gave us a chance to help because
he didn’t ask.
I will miss him all the days of my life.
I see where you are coming from with wanting people to be mad at her for once. But please remember “Every action in this worlds has a consequence” I know it feels like no one sees the truth about her, and that no one ever will, but I can assure you, one day it will all come out…and killing yourself is not the way to do that. Like you have said, you have to think of your child. The affects that you dying would have on him/her would be horrible. I know that is must be so hard for you, i cannot even imagine, but you have to think of your precious child who needs you.
Hi there that just made me mad reading your post and sorry but your mum sounds like a stupid *****! As if you pick on your daughter like that she’s obviously got issues of her own and takes it out on you have you tried talking to her bout how your feeling and the way she speaks to you and puts you down? And definantly do not kill yourself your child needs you and dont give you mother the satisfaction of knowing she completely destroyed you thats not fair on your son to not have a mother just because of her and it kinda sounds like you dont really wanna kill yourself you would just love to hurt her like shes hurt you but suicide shouldn’t be to prove a point just get back at her by holding your head up high and living you life to the fullest with a big smile on your face and be an awesome mum show her how its done something she obviously failed at i bet she’ll be heaps jealous of what a great mum you are and the relationship between you and your son you can do this be strong and live for your son try work things out with your mother if not she needs to piss off outta your life i think you’d be better off without her