I don’t think I am worth keeping around. I only bring pain to everybody around me. I am a terrible man. I feel like I don’t have any control over my life. I am scared of the person I am. I am afraid of facing each new day, and I hope that somehow, someway I will die by the next morning. I don’t have any hope left. I have been through so much suffering and I don’t think my heart can take it anymore. I have tried so hard to fight these feelings inside of me, but I cannot live with myself or what I have done to the people around me.