I’m 13 and I have to much on my mind i fee like i am a burden to everyone. i feel like im just a person in everyones way. i am very covinced that everyone would be happier without me here. my friends tell me that im a big part of their life but i still feel like i dont belong. i have never cut before. i have done so much research on suicide but the more i think and get more weight on my shoulders i get more stressed and i start to plan how to kill myself. i just need advice. so far i have decided to stay alive. but it feels like my life is just completely turning black. My dad has just made my life hell and i just wish he would stop making me feel like i should be perfect!
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I would suggest talking to a counselor at your school, they can refer you to someone who can make a positive difference in your life.
I just want to say of how it is unbelievable I can connect and relate with so many stories in this site, especially stories like you.
I just want to say that as much as it might seem ‘makes sense’ at first, the real truth is that your parents are:
1. Just normal, ordinary human being who are fallible and can err/make mistakes, and have their own flaws too,
therefore:
2. Your life story, or fate, destiny, journey, or whatever does NOT or NEVER have to depend solely on what ur parents think or say or do to you.
Your story is YOUR story,
and hence in this free, seemingly ‘random’ (and also unpredictable) Universe, you are always FREE to carve or make ur OWN story.
There are so many real concrete famous cases that u can simply look em up even by googling or books etc,
But just two very famous cases:
– if John Lennon were to hear his parents’ words of “must not being a musician, because it will make him poor or loser”, our world now won’t have beautiful pieces like “Imagine” where we can relate and get inspired from.
– if Isaac Newton were to heed and obey his parents’ words, he would still just be a mere farmer (following his parents’ footsteps) and not one of greatest scientist and inventor that make our world progressed much today from his effects.
Respect ur parents, but know and keep in mind always that they’re also just humans who are NOT perfect, and even can make mistakes or have own flaws,
And that your story/destiny is NOT their story.
You carve and make/create ur own story, in this vast life and universe.
“Be the Change you want to be/see in this world” – Mahatma Gandhi
My mom wants me to be perfect. When she sees the cutts on my wrist, she treats me like I’m a dog. Isn’t she supposed to help me? That was always my question. She apparently doesn’t give a shit. That is how it’s always been. What i do is ignore my mom’s stupid ass and do my own thing. Ha just to piss her off I turn my radio up super high and put in a koRn cd=) works everytime=)