I have been looking at most of the posts on this website for quite awhile. I just have one question and I would really like responses. Why? Why do you want to die? A lot of posts that I have read are about teens. TEENS! You have so much to live for. Life may seem tough now but it isn’t at all. You have so much more life left why judge it now and try and end it? Do you even know what life is about? For the adults on here wanting to die I also ask why? Do you know what life about? In all posts I have heard a lot about all of you, it seems a little selfish. There are people in this world who have it a lot worse than people on this site, who have a lot less resources/help, and a whole lot less to live for. I work with these kinds of people and what they want and strive for is to be like us. So who are we to waste a beautiful life away? There’s someone who wants to be like you, and look what your doing, look how you are acting. Why? Everyone here has so much, just open your eyes and stop being so selfish.
I would really like to hear why, and I am not trying to start anything.
WolfPack
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Darn right you’re not startin’ anything cuz it ends here: READ.
@LessWorse Why did you even comment then?
Because you’re an careless adult who doesn’t care.
Because everyone hates me.
Because my parents don’t give a fucking shit about my life.
Because I’ve been depressed and suicidal for more than half of my life.
Because no one cares.
Because I can’t express myself.
Because I’m trapped.
Because there’s an evil spirit in my room.
Because I’ve made too many mistakes.
Because it’s all my fault.
Because no one listens to me.
Because there’s no reason to live.
Because everyone loves the pretty girl who gets all the attention by acting depressed instead of the tiny ugly girl in the corner who is actually depressed.
Because I can’t do anything right.
Because everything comes and will come too late.
Because I’m not free.
Because YOU don’t understand.
Because everyone says that they hate child abuse, when they don’t give a damn about it.
Because I’m alive.
Because I’m alive, I want to die.
Because I’ve had enough.
Because I’ve been here long enough and ready to go to heaven and fly side by side with God.
@iammai97 The last one says to go to heaven and fly side by side with God. But in the bible those who commit suicide do not go to heaven. Personally I don’t know what to think about that but I thought since you wrote that and I recently heard an arguments that involved suicide and heaven that I would get your thoughts. The people arguing the topic have never had depression so what are your thoughts?
Obviously, you have never had depression. Do you know what it’s like to wake up every morning and hating the person thats looking back at you. you ask WHY? WE DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY. depression doesn’t have to come from a certain cause, I don’t know why I’ve been depressed for five years. I have a family that loves me and I have friends, and I’m quite aware people have it way worse then me. But it just feels like theres a dark cloud following me everywhere I go. You ask why? I DON’T KNOW. Sorry if it makes me selfish that I’m depressed, sorry I can’t control my emotions. You obviously don’t get it.
@neverthesame Assuming I have never had depression is a bold move. I say this because you are wrong. I got help and I got better. I do get it the depression thing, but depression isn’t the only thing that makes one want to die. So I proposed the question of why. I am thankful for your response, but leave judgement out.
no one knows why, you dont know why, i dont know why. That question will never be answered. maybe were crazy, maybe were selfish, maybe were tired, lost, lonely, maybe were human.
Perhaps you need to re-evaluate your concept of happiness. A set of conditions in the world around you does not create happiness. Happiness is largely separate from surrounding conditions and almost entirely based on perception. Perception can in some cases be modified by practice, therapy, drugs or other techniques. But even the most accomplished practitioners in the field of psychology will tell you that we don’t know very much about the human mind and that there are many cases that simply cannot be treated.
Do you distinguish mental illness from physical illness? Would it be ok if we wanted to die because we had cancer or AIDS? What form does suffering have to take for it to be valid in your view?
john.doe are you talking about Physician Assisted Death with the last sentences? I only want to know why if someone takes their own life they take it. I don’t think I can do much about it. I was just simply asking why.
if u find a person with the answer to why kick their ass n tell us how to fix it.
@ zdeathchanz Ha, this is the only comment that made me smile 🙂
I don’t wanna die, never attempted, only contemplated and always reasoned with myself since I still fortunately have a loving and caring family.
I still don’t have any problems with killing anyone, it doesn’t do any type of damage to your body and releases any type of jealousy towards someone…plus it wipes out sub-humans from the face of the earth.
@eiddnaffokcuf So, rather than suicide you chose murder? Can I ask for a little more detail?
Have you EVER had to endure psychosis in your life? No. Try doing that ONCE and then post that again.
@Malfeitor No haven’t you are right. I am asking why to try and understand, maybe you should explain rather than post what you did.
So much to look for in life?
The most I’m going to get is a job at burger king.
From being hurt by the closest people to me
from being betrayed by my own father who is supposed to protect me from the things he is doing to me.
That any of the people who wanted to get to know me I pushed away because I can’t trust anybody
The fact that I can’t feel emotions anymore
The fact that I have told People I need help But they ACT like i never said anything and that the conversation we had never happened
People might have it worse then me I will agree
But everybody handles pain differently some people can handle it some people try and fail because they can’t
But i know nobody would want my life… who would want to get repeatidly raped by their own dad for 9 years and still going?
@akgirl What if people on this website want to help? Would you let them? Arimus seems to think that I have nothing bad going on in my life but I can relate to you more than you think….
WTf are you to condem those on this site? Live with a mental illness and then come back here and see if you still think we’re all selfish.
One of the reasons I have decided to catch the bus is to avoid causing further pain to others. My mood swings are tearing me apart and causing me to destroy everyting I love and hold dear, I’ve said things to my wife who I love so much that I never meant but my mind doesn’t work any more. I had everything, good job, a home, a loving wife, I am now losing it all one at a time. I’ve given up trying to struggle on, at the start of this year things looked so much brighter but since then I’ve gone lower than ever. I have no control over my moods any more, I long for release of death.
If I could just trade places with someone who died when they wanted to live I would do so without batting an eye lid.
@Arimus I am not condemning, I am telling you my opinion and would like to know why. Your WTF is uncalled for. If you would like to talk I would gladly talk to you, I would like to know more about the mood swings. Is that okay?
Sorry wolfpack, just sick of people condeming people who choose suicide as a way out. I know and accept not everyone will agree with our reasoning but for most, I hope all, it is not an easy choice, it is not a cowards way out.
My mood swings: One day I can be high and happy, next sat crying, I can hardly keep my temper in check, not physical but verbal, I’ve gone from a reasonably happy but quiet introvert as a teenager to a bitter, depressed, tempermental 38 yr old.
At the start of the year I felt so much better, my depression, my constant companion for the past 10 years seemed to have gone. Then bam… back worse than ever.
Having constant psychosis attacks involving extreme hallucinations (both auditory and visionary), out of body experiences, hallucinating very bad things that appear are happening to me. I constantly hallucinate visions of demons or other nonhuman existences trying to kill me, when I go out on midnight walks, I constantly hallucinate cars coming from behind trying to run me over, but there’s no cars there. Each and every single attack is worse than the last. While this is happening it’s causing very rapid panic anxiety attacks at such a high accelerating rate, causing my heart to beat irregularly and extremely fast, I feel like it’s going to rip through my chest cavity at any second causing extreme pain, and piled on top of all that is years and years of severe clinical depression, 3 mental illnesses piled into one punch, and that punch hits me all at the same time. Psychosis is the mental illness that causes people to kill their families and then their self.
@Malfeitor This is a question that I see a lot of people ask and I know it may be annoying, but are there treatments for this? And do they work? Sorry I don’t wanna be that annoying person but I am curious.
The only cure is pure unadulterated DEATH, even I don’t deserve death, death is far to good for me, I only deserve eternal suffering for years to come.
Maybe it will help you understand by rephrasing the question. Instead of asking “Why do you want to die?”, I’d like to ask “Why are we alive in the first place?”.
Regardless of what, or how much, I have, I didn’t ask for any of this. Being on this planet, in this time, in this society, with these possible life experiences (good or bad), is wholly outside of my asking or desire. I’ve had some great times in my life, some good experiences, and yes – if by “better”, you mean “more physically comfortable and societally fortunate”, I’ve had it “better” than many other people in the world.
However, if I really had it better than others in the world, I’d be able to see a point to it all. I’d be able to approach situations in my life sincerely thinking “This time it will work out better!”, and what is more – I’d be able to base that thought on proof, proof of situations in the past that HAD worked out better.
I don’t have that proof. When I look back on the years I’ve struggled against suicide, I see that though there were some laughs thrown in there, here and there, no: things did not get better. They stayed the same, regardless of what I did. I read books, studied religions (even tried a couple), backpacked in foreign countries, spent a year farming and living in nature, talked to psychologists and psychiatrists and counselors, and no: things have not gotten better. They’ve stayed the same. Remember Midas? All he touched turned to gold, but the gold didn’t matter when he couldn’t eat. Or, when he turned loved ones into gold. Who cares if my life is, compared to a less fortunate one across the globe, “golden” if there are a few small overlooked things, like faith, you don’t have?
What if on a number of occasions, you thought you’d finally found happiness, and on every single one of those occasions where you thought “Finally! This is real!”, it wasn’t real? You were actually mistaken. Again.
People survive because they have dreams, they dream of better things. I can’t tell you how many dreams I worked and waited for, only for them to backfire into nightmares. Kinda makes it hard to live when you can’t trust your dreams.
Of course most of the people you hear about who’ve survived their depression to prove it did get better – the ones who fought it for 10, 20, or 30 years without improvement before punching their ticket aren’t around to tell their stories.
I like what DiminishingReturn wrote above,
Sometimes it’s just NOT about you’re already rich, or live in a “good” country that most world population can only dream of, or even if u’re succesful.
Hell, just look at why so many celebrities and famous/popular top-of-the-world musicians/artists still killed themselves.
Sometimes the only reason u’re feeling suicidal -if u’re like me- can be as simple as you feel this real world is NEVER as interesting, or vivid like what in ur imaginations, dreams that are usually HUNDREDS times more interesting than this so-called “Real world” that’s often just full of boredom, mind-numbing repetitions, dry, coldness and harshness, full of idiots in mankind/humanity, and filled with mostly pain and sufferings,
With all of these, it’s just easy to then ask like what DiminishingReturn said above “why are WE alive at the 1st place?”
Well I’m personally still not wanting to kill myself or something like that, for now, but it’s just the truth that I can still easily feel depressed and frustrated with everything and suicidal..
Just hope I can keep living, and eventually find things worth living for..
But reading so many tragic stories in this website has somewhat opened my eyes to the truth that; maybe Life is just random. It’s not fortunate or unfortunate, ‘cuz Life (or Reality) simply just IS.