Im 13 and hate my parents i can honestly say i dont love them.Me and my mom are constantly fighting and not the little fights most kids have with their parents.I was 4 when my dad died in some freak car accident and i was 4 when i saw my first porno wich was easy to understand even at that age.My mom and dad rented some movies and when they gave me mine i told them it wasnt it but u know parents they never listen to their kids i remember that night before i went to bed that my parents probably got the movie to practice i dont know how i knew i guess it was natural.Back to the present my mom has been raising me and my 3 younger sisters for 11 years but then she suddenly decides its time to get a boyfriend i mean i dont have a problem with her getting a boyfriend at all but come on couldnt she have done better this guy is a natural bum he doesnt have a job and doesnt make any money what so ever all this guy does is take up space,eat all our food and walk around the house like he owns the place.My mom screams at me whe i apparently dont respect him and i obviously cant say he doesnt respect me wich is true because then she gonna start asking all hese questions then we get in a big fight her and her boyfriend get in a big fight and they fight ALOT they try to pass it off like their keepin it fresh but really we all know whats going on.They usually fight about me and my attitude and how i dont listen to what he says my motto is “treat others the way you wanna be treated” and that kinda says how im gonna treat you of u just prance around all day.One thig me and my mom usally fight about is why im never happy when i get home but really how can i be.I have started cutting myself and i do wanna kill myself i really wanna jump off a building it never gives you time to think.I suck under pressure i mean i cant make decisions for myself,my mind goes blank and i feel like crying wich i never do.I have been molested once and never again it was by a really close family member and he wasnt even much older ive seen him once and he looks great just great while im here suffering and stuff but whatever he has a little sister now like 4 months really cute.I hate going home i joined and after skool program so i dont get out till 3 then i go to the library and dont go home till 6 pm kool huh?
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well let me start off by saying killing yourself won’t solve anything. step dads are a bigger pain in the ass then real dads. I was molested by a family member to its difficult shit to deal with.well at least your learning at the library and after school program. Well stay strong I’m here if you need someone to talk to.
Fuck them, Ignore em
Live for yourself, Your mums guilt might eventually take over and she’ll wake up to herself but it only happens in like 2 in 6 cases
Let them wreck there own lives and not let it wreck yours
Exposing pedophiles is the shit to do. Pedophiles never change
Your stronger and smarter then all of them.
Porn is just porn, made for men to get off.
It is nothing, but the beautiful art of sex
It does make you grow up quicker though.
Sex is sex. Sex is reproduction. Sex wrecks lives if not done with the right person
All you have to do. Is learn how to survive. Read as many books as you can. Watch as many movies as you can. Listen to all types of music.
Practice everything.
Forget about the people who made you and Figure out what do i have to do so my children dont go through the same shit.
Your body and soul will get stronger
and you can survive. If you want too
Think about the effects on your sisters after your death?
All you can do is your best. I pretended to like my step mom, and I finally learned to be real about it…Obviously your mom has stuff to deal with and would rather have a man than care for your needs….your needs have to be met so do what you can, seek out a good councillor, fight for yourself…..anything negative anyone does or says is a reflection on them…full stop! Not you! If I saw anyone doing that, he’d be paint on the wall…literally. Have compassion for yourself….13 yrs old babe. Exhaust your options…talk to decent, caring people who know about this kind of stuff. Read John Bradshaw…talks a lot about dysfunctional families and how certain younger members get lost in the shuffle. You’re worth it! Good luck.
u will survive dont worry just keep thiking foward and when ur older find away and escape make ur life better 🙂 dont forget about ur sisters help them to they will probly go thru the same things as u did