Not sure if I’m the alone one here keeping myself alive not only by partially being a coward (no offense intended) but also by thinking: “What if aliens land tomorrow?” Sometimes, I’ll be sitting in my bed with a knife, thinking about how nice the pain would feel again. No, not the reaction afterwords, the pain in general. But then I think, what if that really cool demon from hell comes and decides he loves me? I immediately put the knife down. What if ninjas abduct me? I can’t run while losing blood. Or, I’ll never be great psychonaut if I can’t even get over my own “Personal Demons”. Am I the only one?
Sometimes curing class, if I can’t stand the situation I’m in I imagine someone is with me. Like Razputin, or Atemu. I’ll pretend they’re talking to me and helping it through- It’s really hard for me to separate them from real people aside from their crazy hair styles or the fact that they don’t fit in.. Like me.
Once I came to school dressed like a ninja, and when people started making fun of me and laughing I imagined me and my ninja friends beating them up and pulling their eyes out and stuff…
Am I the only one?