Not sure if I’m the alone one here keeping myself alive not only by partially being a coward (no offense intended) but also by thinking: “What if aliens land tomorrow?” Sometimes, I’ll be sitting in my bed with a knife, thinking about how nice the pain would feel again. No, not the reaction afterwords, the pain in general. But then I think, what if that really cool demon from hell comes and decides he loves me? I immediately put the knife down. What if ninjas abduct me? I can’t run while losing blood. Or, I’ll never be great psychonaut if I can’t even get over my own “Personal Demons”. Am I the only one?
Sometimes curing class, if I can’t stand the situation I’m in I imagine someone is with me. Like Razputin, or Atemu. I’ll pretend they’re talking to me and helping it through- It’s really hard for me to separate them from real people aside from their crazy hair styles or the fact that they don’t fit in.. Like me.
Once I came to school dressed like a ninja, and when people started making fun of me and laughing I imagined me and my ninja friends beating them up and pulling their eyes out and stuff…
Am I the only one?
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Kind of… I think what if I kill myself and then something happened that would’ve made my horrible feelings disappear… like 2012, I’d really like to see if anything monumental happens in that year and if not well 2013 sounds like a good departing year.
I wish Aliens would land and fix our world problems, but… humanity must grow and mature on it’s own I think.