I live a pretty interesting life… I’m on seriquil right now 100mg. Not taking it right now… not for the last 72 hrs… makes me sleep.
listining to life is beautiful by Sixx AM off the album the Heoin diaries.
I believe that the closer we get to death the closer we feel alive… becuse your never more alive then when your dieing that includes killing yourself.
I believe that we are all running out of time and we are all going to die… so fuck it… and enjoy life… its coming and we can’t stop it.
I do believe that I made a deal with god… that I won’t kill myself… but I no longer care if I die… it has gotten me into a lot of life changing events I’ll tell you that. funny how you can be afraid to die even when you want to kill yourself….
for the past 72 hrs I have been listning to NIN Something I can never have… I found the flyleaf one
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEVOVN24R08&feature=related
it’s really good…
I have heard that a lot of people commit suicide to this song.
I stay on that edge of life… because if I don’t I’ll get complacent and fuck myself up again like right now and Really want to kill myself…. everyone has 1,000 ways to die in there head… planing it out… putting there affairs into order… make a to do list with killing yourself on it just to make sure that the job is done. I’m going to die… because I’m dieing. I’m just in the take the safety away from it part right now.
so talk to me I need to tell someone its ok…
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Hey buddy have you heard Three Days Grace- Never Too Late or P.O.D- It Cant Rain Everyday? You might like them
you know, enjoying that music? you cant hear anything when you are dead. Trent reznor had a very tortured soul but he was able to make music, im glad he did not die. Dont stress about females. they come and go just like money. Just build yourself up so next time you grab a girl you can make the most of it. that is something to live for. And keep tour record clean
That was the first time I’ve heard ether song…
drowning is sadness… It’s better to feel the pain then to try to ignore it and let it kill me… I like It can’t rain everyday. I have a plethora of songs like these. I drown in the sorrow. I’m not emo… I am a soldier a Veteran Airborne Combat Medic in the united states army that’s why I’m at fort bragg… I have saved people’s lives I’ve been to Iraq and have seen some really serious shit… but it’s nothing compared to my wife leaving me. I listen to music in everything I do.
This is Flaw’s only the strong
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iq2sj6-4aM
ive got a lot of respect for you sir
I love music also try P.O.D- Anything Right thats good too
God i could suggest heaps lol!
I’m into more underground music, so I want to suggest something you’ve probably never heard of that you might dig: the band is called Modern Life is War
check them out on myspace or Last FM
they’re heavy, dark, and I read their lyrics sometimes and think “woah”
I listen to some … unothidox bands….
and underground music…
like Unset: eyes wide open- and drowning summer
I also listen to
skillet
flyleaf
Red
disciple
those are the bands I’m listening too right now
it helps.
Dark bands?
heh… diary of dreams
Hollywood undead
flaw
cold
even bands that have a lot of wisdom that are dark
like vnvnation.
there entropy and endless sky songs are amazing even if there techno.
Lance, have you gone to you’r wife? since how long has she left you? Do you know why? Perhaps its just a misunderstanding…… As once told to me.. If she is meant to be, she will come back, if she is proper don’t let her go. Good luck to you, you’r music is beautiful Lance,
God has put it on my heart to reach out to people and I like to take advantage of the opportunities that I am given. Jesus is the Answer! The Bible says, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened. If your not saved, God wants you to be. God Bless! We never know when it’s too late. Jesus is the way, the only way to God. God Bless You & Yours
So my life is in shambles. I just turned 30 and I just lost my job, where I made pretty decent money. My 2 year old daughter who is my only joy in life I get to see for a few hours, one day a week. I’m living in my childhood bedroom detoxing from the heroin that I can no longer afford to use to kill the pain. all I have is pain and suffering and last night around 8am after trying to fall asleep for 8 strait hours, taking hot baths to ease the deep aching in my legs from WD’s, I decided it was going to do it. I was gonna end it all. I wrote the letter, grabbed the razor even made the cut, or tried to. The blade was too dull to get deep enough… after a few minutes of trying I chickened out and went to talk with my mom and tell her what I tried to do. I know I need help. My life sucks enough without these withdraws to deal with. I’m afraid of myself and afraid that if I do go get help that it will show on record, when/if I go to court for visitation rights for my little girl. I don’t know why i’m telling you all this. maybe I just had to get it out. tell someone you know, really tell them what i’m going through. I feel no happiness or joy only pain. is this life? if so I don’t want it anymore.