wow i’ve read stuff here and i was like… i should have been writting here long ago….
im a 19 yr old guy.. i really dont think ANYONE has it worst than me. first of all. in my childhood i’ve been abused… (lets not go there)
which resulted in me being curious for the other sex.
my family are strictly against gays and lesbians. my parents…. i wish they can divorce already… since i can remember they always fight infront of us…. for 19years i’ve watched them fight… and on top of it i had my own problems that i had no one to talk to about…. my alder brother treats me like shit.. because he suspects that im gay. my dad… the worst… he wont even ask me how i am….
my school i’ve been picked on alot…. till mid high school i became a bit popular because i was everyones friend…
i always faild mathematics…. and my dad is a mathematics teacher. ironic?
my final year at high school i did bad…. faild mathematics as usuall… did not have enough marks to get me in a university…. so i took the year off trying to pass mathematics… but who are we kidding? I FAILD IT!!!
so while i was failing mathematics.. i met a guy… we dated for 8months inlove… obviously my parents did not know… till we broke up on new years eve… im crushed… sad…. heartbroken… but now that we broke up i realised that im messing around. im not gay i was just curious. but its not like i can switch off emotions like that
im good at nothing. i cant get a job for the mean time because i dont know how to do anything. my whole family say think that im a mistake. i cant study this year because dad doesnt have money for me.
so there we go. another year of pain for me. just sitting at home doing nothing. i just wish that i can be dragged to the deepest hole on this earth and just stay there away from everyone. with unlimited supply of food :), oh just btw i am tall and skinny i look very awkward… because i have the biggest head in the world. and if your standing from far you can already see “FAILURE” written on my head. there is so much id like to add here but i just cant get them down in words….
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I Guess it’s hard to be gay. If your messing with a guy you are gay.
that’s who you are. Im a guy i was never curious about other guy’s
so you be true to what you are anyway love is love
Sorry to hear about all that, you shouldn’t think youre in the deepest hole there is.. In the world theres always someone worse off than you.. Weve all got problems, but yours are your own, your emotions are you own, you dont need to compare them with other people cause we all hurt more so or less than others do.
Im bi or gay, I dunno. Ive never had a job, my friends completely screwed me over when I was 18 so I hid away at home, I stopped going out and stayed in for 2 years until a suicide attempt that put me in a psychiatric ward, my mum kicked me out and now I live with my sister, still in the mess I was 2 years ago and wanting to die even more.. and theres even more to all of it than that.. like I said weve all got problems :/ if you wanna email we can if you want.
Hi,
well, I see you fine enough to not even believe yourself that nobody has it worse than you. Holy shit. Your case is not bad at all even though you may view it like that.
Before I read your post I was writing for someone similar and now there you go, confirming my words.
The retarded society out there, and I am referring to 90% of the population are told that faggotism is a natural thing, and frail minded as they are, they sympathize with faggots because they are such sweet creatures. They fucking are not. Each ****** cheats his partner with an average of 500 other guys in their life time.
I am glad that you managed to shake off your faggotism but you should do something about that someone who abused you. Making him / her pay.
You need to study the field you feel comfortable with and which also has some practical applications in the future. Not necessarily maths. (maths is great but if you are not doing well at them, dont insist, it is a natural talent like drawing)
Use your free time now at home to learn something useful, dont just hang out dully. Decide what you want to study and prepare it at home in advance. Dont lie on the couch staring at the ceiling, or worse, watching TV.
Learn web technology, it is the fucking future. In 10 years the world will be divided between the ignorant and the technocrats. Use this year to learn something of use.
You dont necessarily need money to study, you can do open university, distance learning or some cheap state university. You dont need to go to Harvard, Harvard is by the way rubbish, I have been there and it is pure marketing, so, like I said, dont block yourself with little things.
best greetings
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oracle he a gay ok two men kiss freak’s me out but if that who he is then so
I don’t wanna start a debate or anything but blackqwert if two men kissing freaks you out then keep it to yourself.. This is a suicide website, maybe thats something hes insecure about considering he didnt tell anyone. Dunno if you heard or not but world wide about of gay teenagers and adults have been commiting suicide because of discrimination and bullying because of their sexuality.
Who cares if somebody likes men, women, transexuals or is so open minded they could fall in love with anyone, ots not a choice, its who people are and they find that out as they experience life. Like I said im not starting a debate or arguement im just saying.. People are who they are, gay, straight, bisexual or transgender.
a lot of gay teenagers and adults*
It just dose Im bein honest but i get if two people are attracted to each other who Im i to judge but not in my face go to the gay bar or club
So what about two girls kissing infront of you? Does that freak you out too?
You kmow what Im sayin
Not exactly lol, I take that as a no. I just think all people should be equal whatever their sexuality, they shouldnt have to hide away in some bar.