why am i here!? why did my parents have to me! im not even worth it i screw up everything and i suck at everything why did god have to put me on this stupid world! i just wish i was dead or i would dissapear and die in my sleep sooo i will never wake up. i bearly fifteen and i already want to die i knw sad throwing your life away. but i never asked for it i dnt even want it! i have nothing to look foward too my parents hate me! some of my friends are fake and u cant trust them. i dnt even care anymore wat happens to me anymore. i mean i have probably the perfect life that any teenage girl would want. my parents give me pratically everthing i want. but i really want is there love the only reason they buy me stuff is becuz there never  there for me its the only reason they make up for it i just want to be happy. i dnt want any of this i just wish i was dead i hate my life i always have sense i rember like when i was 12. and i cry every night telling god i dnt want to be here i have no purpose give it to someone else let me go nope never does i wish i would stop feeling this pain my heart hurts soo much its feeled with sadness and regrets that i can never take back im just a srew up a lost cause! i thought about suciciding for many years now but i never wennt through with it becuz i guess im scared or dnt know how to die without feeling any pain i just want my heart to stop beating soo i can rest in peace i dnt want to be here in this fucked up world with all these mean fake people that just hurt you. aaaaaaaaaaa… i hate my life. i hate everything about it im not happy im always sad and depressed why should i live if i feel like that all the time 24/7 im never happy nothing makes me happy i dnt care about anything my only wish is that i would dissapear and never wake up from this baddream. why me:? i guess im just tired of all this crap and i knw some pple are gnna say noo your life is worth living dnt through it all away. bull! all lies!
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haha not you alone.. though you are lucky that you can see your parents alive in this world 🙂 your whole life is left now, it just needs a change. try switching your school so probably you will get something new there, wait for a change in your life, say untill collage or you get a job, untill then you can try to make friends here (online) and trust me its worth making you feel better
Of course people would say that. No one wants to have another person die. Not all of them would understand. I’m sure there are people here who understands you though. I have parents like that. They say I live a happy and great life, when all they do is buy me things to eat and then leave me alone to do whatever and neglect me. I have fake friends too, who just lie and use me and then abandon me when I need them. I have practically no friends now cause of that. I can understand how you feel. I can’t see anything in my future, so I’ve been looking up on ways to die easily, without messing up the attempt and then just end up crippled or something instead. I’m sure there’s hope for you though, since you say “some” of your friends are fake. Just ditch the fake and hang out with the true friends instead… you’ll find yourself happier that way..
having real friends is not all…i have one and i cant talk to him about all this… but i can depend on him with everything else…he can take my mine off of things but also hurt me unknowingly because he don’t know what plays in my head… its hard to have friends… he asks me often to go an ddo something and i always accept but when he wants me to just be happy and jump around ore whatever…i just cant… i cant express myself and he does not get that…but still i want him to be my friend…you can say i use him as well…i like it when i’m around him…it just takes my mine of off things…even when i’m real depressed… it takes him about 45 minutes to get em out of it but he does not give up on a moment like that and that is a point i admire…
long story short… real friends hurt you as well but give something back in return…so you can say your the same with ore without…it is just the fact of having them that is impotent to most