I ruined my life school, social and family wise. No one cares about me and I need an escape so I want to ruin it for good. I took 15 hydrocodone apap 5-500 trying to overdose but just ended up feeling sick for one day. Every morning I wake up with anxiety and have such hard time breathing just thinking about how bad things have gotten. At this point i want to die and end all this pain. I can’t even have a regular conversation with somewhat close friends and family members because of the depression in my voice. My plan now is to buy sodium nitrite the chemicals used in preservatives and eat the salt in raw form. The lethal amount is 4g so I plan on eating a tablespoon of it. Please let me know what I’m getting myself into by eating this I read that ppl on accident have eaten this salt and become unconscious. Please let me know since cyanide poisons are so hard to buy I have to resort to this.
My email is hnli375@gmail.com
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How old are you where ya from?
Hi crying on the inside I’m 19 from WA. I’ve read your posts and can identify with your pain. I’ve been hospitalized for a month and been through therapy but nothing has changed I can never stop feeling this hopelessness. I’ve tanked badly in school and can’t battle back from this feeling of no hope.
No one is their for me and the ppl/friends/family/advisors just dismisses me and tells me to work harder. This isn’t possible for me I lost all sense of hope that anything will turn around.
I don’t know what to do at this point and will try to ingest 14 grams which is a table spoon of sodium nitrite and die. Is this possible though like it causing death. Does anybody know the symptoms before death?
Please respond I can’t take it anymore like this
R you from Australia?
No sorry From Washington state
but what are your thoughts on this method please let me know
Oh shit sorry read it wrong. Um not sure i havent heard of that method
I haven’t either til I looked up sodium nitrite but it’s level 2 moderate poison according to the msds but I don’t know what else to do hopefully that would be enough to lead to death since they said 4 grams would be lethal. I want out and don’t know what else to do this is my only option