My name is Carly. I’m 30 years old and am from Alabama. I attempted to slit my wrist at age 16 and had to be hospitalized twice in one month. I didn’t even complete my sophmore year of high school because of my problems,but by the grace of God I passed anyway and finished high school in 1999. Being born with Spina-Bifida and being forced to wear diapers because of bladder and bowel controls problems I was the object of constant ridicule all through grammar school and high school. In fact,I was the only person in my senior class who didn’t have a date for the prom. As a freshman in junior high I was able to land a guy who I had known for quite a while who also has Spina-Bifida so he could relate to my problems. But,we didn’t get to spend enough time together so as most adolescent romances often do,ours eventually played out. He didn’t break up with me in person,he did it by mail. I was completely devastated. I thought my life was over. I was already beginning to spiral into a depression because of the constant teasing at school,but this was the final straw. It got to the point where I refused to go to school and I didn’t even want to bathe or get out of bed. I starting going to mental health counseling and told them I was feeling suicidal so they got me into Charter Woods hospital and stayed for a week and I starting taking medication. Upon getting out of the hospital I felt a bit better temporarily,but still refused to go to school. A month later,I finally hit bottom. I was sitting on the bed in my room one morning crying and something just snapped. I got up and went to the bathroom and grabbed a razor and starting going up and down my arm with it,THANK GOD it was a dull razor so I didn’t do much damage.Â DeepÂ downÂ I could hear a voice in my heartÂ saying “You don’t really want to do this” and I knew I really didn’t. After that I started screamingÂ for my Mom.She immediately called mental health and I went back in the hospital for a second time. This time my medicine was changed and I continued counseling for about a year and then felt I was ready to stop. I even went back to school. There was some depression still there,but not as severe as before. In 1999 I graduated and went to college in 2001 and graduated in 2005.Â Through the years I still had some contact with my ex,which I finally broke for good when I became a born again Christian in 2009. I now realize that with God as my strength I CAN and WILL get through anything! NOTHING is worth ending your life over. I know what pain and suffering is and I also know that Satan will do anything and everything he can to make you stay there! That’s what he did to me and he still tries,but now I fight back. And you can too. NO ONE can tell me God doesn’t exist and that prayers aren’t answered because I am living proof that He DOES exist and prayers ARE answered! There is no sin that you have committed that is so great that you can’t be forgiven. Satan would have you believe that you are worthless and there is no hope for you and that God won’t help you,but it is a LIE! God loves you so much that He sent is only Son to die so that you could have eternal life. PLEASE don’t throw that gift away! I know alot of you think you don’t need to hear about God and The Bible and there was a time when I didn’t think I needed to either,but now I realize just how wrong I was and I THANK GOD so much that I found out before it was too late. And that is what IÂ want for all of you to do. I am sharing my story because if I can help just one person realize there IS hope with the love of God then I know I’ve made some kind of a difference. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans that I have for you,declares The Lord,plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you hope and a future.” And John 16:33 says:”These things I have spoken to you that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation,but be of good cheer,I have overcome the world.” I encourage you all today to Hear The Gospel,Believe The Gospel,Repent of your sins,Confess Christ as Lord,and be baptized for the remission of sins and begin a new life as a child of God,and I PROMISE YOU that will be the best decision you could ever possibly make! I did and I am a much happier person today because of it. If you don’t own a Bible PLEASE get one TODAY! Also I encourage you to go to http://www.gbntv.org and watch their programming. Taking your life IS NOT the answer,Jesus is! PLEASE trust in Him! You WON’T regret it! But,if you turn away from Him and end your life before God says it’s time you WILL regret it for eternity. PLEASE think about it! And make the WISE decision! You are all in my prayers. I love you all,but most importantly,God loves you. PLEASE give Him the chance to show you just how much.