Someone here suggests piano wire as an effective and painless way of hanging. Are they insane ? It may be effective, hanging is, but with piano wire ? This was a method favoured by the Nazi to deal with many who were involved in the 22 June 1944 plot to kill Hitler; Hitler chose it because it was slow and painful. He wanted revenge.
I understand the desire to die. I understand the attraction of suicide. I understand the sense of control it gives me. It allows me a choice but I wonder, whether it is, in fact, an addiction, a fantasy that gives me some prospect of rising above and beyond the inner pain; I know it is wrong, not always, there are circumstances, but in my case, it would be wrong., not because some sort of deity has prohibited it, but because it is anti instinctive.
It pains me to say it but suicide is not a solution. It is frightening that too often I think it is.