I am glad I found this site, the entire Suicide Concept truly amazes me and has for yearsâ€¦.
I am confused by the many posts from people that state they are in some type of *pain*. I am not sure â€˜painâ€™ is the correct word to use, or maybe my situation is just different than others. I do think you might want to read mine, or hell maybe not. I’m male, 44, married to one of the most beautiful ladies I have ever laid eyes on for 24 years, 3 children. I have a good job, decent house. So maybe I am not the typical stereo-type that would find a site like this.. I am not sick, nor in any type of *physical pain*
What *I* am and what *I* think many others are is Tiredâ€¦. Just worn down from Life. We all have our stories, the trials or whatever you want to call it that you dealt / deal with growing up. But seriously at the end of the day what is real is that the times are different, people are horrible to each other, what happened to being polite, maybe a simple â€œthank youâ€? What happened to holding the door open for others? What happened to thinking more about others before yourself? Heck anymore, if you help someone, they just take it for granted and donâ€™t appreciate it. Compassion or sensitivity nope, gone. Faithfulness? Goneâ€¦.
I donâ€™t see the finish line, all I see is unappreciative people getting ahead and some of us getting left behind. The future for me in my eyesâ€¦ get up go to work, come home eat dinner, 5 days a week, mow grass on weekends and maybe swing a golf club ( which is stupid expensive) this isnâ€™t the way I want to keep going on. Enjoyment in our lives, youâ€™re kidding right? What the hell is enjoyment? Always something needing done, always something somewhere for someone.
The big questionâ€¦ Do *I* want outâ€¦. If people donâ€™t change and all I see in my future is this lifeâ€¦ than ya, save me a seat on the train outta hereâ€¦. Iâ€™m ready to goâ€¦..