Random ranting about random topics (amazing title right? Fuck you if no jk)

Oh my god. Humans are considered many things. Mostly evil, often disguised as nice. Anyways this is just my ranting about random crap while listening to the flobots (whoo!!! Jk I don’t say that) anyways I think there is many things I think about when I’m bored… And lemme tell you, my home is extremely boring at my dads place, but my moms place is better. Anyways, what’s the point in living with such evil creatures [humans]? I am still depressed, but I think I kind of accepted my depression and felt happy? Idk if that’s what caused me to feel better but as a pessimist I just love to suffer (I still ***** about my problems) I need something to ***** about so I can have depression, so I could feel like shit, so I can hate everything, so I have something to do. Well, I might go off subject a lot, because my thoughts are unorganized and I don’t write anything down.
This weekend, I got sick, it’s a four day weekend, so no prob, I won’t be sick all 4 days, right? Well so far I’ve been sick 3/4 of my weekend break from sophomore year at my boring high school. So yeah I hate the bullshit that came with it. Especially since I thought the sickness wouldn’t get to me but I slowly was getting sick through the week before our 4-day break, but I don’t miss school, because I aint a lucky lil *****. But instead I end up in bed 2/3 of my days, sick as fuck. I hate my life so much because I ain’t one of the “luckier” people, not even close to it. For all the Call of Duty players. Why da fuck is it that in Black Ops, I run into a friendly and it bumps me back and gets me killed but then when they do it to me I still get the same thing. I fuckin hate black ops now, was so close to breaking it. Ugh!!! Anyways my mom is beginning to irritate me and I like her she’s really cool with me, but she’s irritating me more than usual. So yeah, my hot blood cousin and her brother are having trouble with their drunken, idiot, drug-abusing, niece-raping father and it pisses me off since my dads too stupid to know how to help out, and he won’t let me do shit, like tell the drunken idiot off. My dad was in the room when the idiot told me he was gonna kill me and “wrestled” with me and I ain’t the type to fight back, so I let him and expected my dumbass dad to help me out by then, but I guess since my uncles the older one then I guess hes afraid of him. What am I gonna do bout that then. So the idiot got drunk at a family reunion for my dumbass dads family and I decided not to go but should have so I could cuss him out if I got the balls to to stop drinking. My uncle attempted to raped a cousin of ours named Alma and then he says I can’t come over to my hot cousins house after school everyday and I asked why and he started saying shit and then that I need to respect him because it’s his house and only when he’s there. But that ruins everything because I went there because I wanted to stay away from the stepbitch at my house, and the stepbitch doesn’t know how to cook well so there’s practically no food. And shes a *****, and my stepmom. Anyways, my dad told me the reason was,”When you get married, (ha I’ll be dead before that) and if u have a daughter, then you’ll understand.” so what I interpret from that is that he… They don’t trust me enough to be with my cousin, especially since their drug-abused, alcoholic immature minds can’t comprehend the idea of trusting me with my own cousin, my dads oldest child at age 16, with my age 14 hot cousin yasmine and age 13 cousin alex and alone with them. I asked my dad at first.” what? You think I’ma do something stupid like burn down the house or throw a damn party with my very, very few actual friends?”
Dad:”no I think you guys are smart enough not to, but when you get married…”
Anyways what I interpret from that is I just asked if they don’t trust me and he said that it’s not that, it’s that they don’t trust me? Dumbasses. Anyways sorry I was gonna rant but wrote only bout that.
Anyways, how come they made spellcheck permanent on the itouch/iPhone, since there’s noo point in that. It just messes up the meaning of my sentences that I write about. Grrrrr!!! It pisses me off a lot. “Windmill, windmill. Fathers land…” -Gorrilaz (sorry song came up and decided to quote my most recognized part of the song in it.
Why does everyone think so lowly about other people who have a different belief or no belief in god. There’s no such thing!!! (I’m atheist) anyways please don’t get pissed off, you Christians piss me off too for saying stupid quotes from the big black book called the bible. My dad got angry at me for telling my brother about my idea of being an atheist
Age 11 brother asking Annoyingly random questions: “do you believe in god?” (expecting me to say yes)
Me: “no. I’m an atheis…”
Dad interrupts angrily: “then what do you believe in? How was everything created? How did you get born? How… Why… What…”
After heavy bombardment of questions I say:”well I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in god”
Brother: …. (no comment)
Dad: “well why are you saying that, stop telling him things like that”
Me speechless thinking WTF he makes me go to churn, makes me lissten to him talk about god and shit and doesn’t let me speak my beliefs, unless he likes what he hears… I stopped talking to him for a month or so because he never listens, he’s an ignorant piece of shot(Itouch spellcheck for shit) wish I was adopted but I’m ignorant just like him.
It’s a Miracle I didn’t go too far into detail about how much I hate life and shot. That’s an accomplishment for me.
Well anyways yeah I’ma stop here and comment on this and address the comment you want to comment on and lets go from there.