Today was going good till I thought about angel ash.
I was with my girl(I wish she was mine) after school.her bf stayed of corce.
He’s going to see his ex this weekend.like wtf!he’s hurting christal and he doesnt care!
Best part is..they kissed in front of me.
Good thing yhat happened…is she came to my house.we each had a sip of this kick ass vodka!
It was some awesome shit.
But down side….my friend alyssa is. Madcuz she thinks I like christal more(friend wise)
That’s not true.I love them the same.I just like christal…more then a friend.
Today gad its ups and downs.
I told christal…after my bday I’m dying.but maeliin and I and other gota take our trip first.
I LOVE YOU ANGEL ASH!
AND EVERYONE!!
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when you do it, imma do it. </3 i dont wanna loose you u.
You won’t.and see “</3" I told you….
Come me and maeliin crash..
*with
i will ,
You vwill bnot die.
But you should come on the trip.it will be fun
Alysaa is just being immature right now, she’ll come around and stop being mad soon.
And who knows, maybe you’ll reconsider suicide from now until when your plan is.
Its about christal:/ and I’m planing it for tge day of or after bmy bday
…
Your mind could change until then. When’s your birthday?
June 13
What maeliin?
?????
So that means you’re not far off from leaving us. Interesting.
Sorry I disappeared like that, I got caught up in a videogame. XD
nikki…why are you going to leave…why…
Becaue.I can’t save anyone.I’m hurtingchristal.I’m making her choose.I never wanted this
…and u think u won’t b hurting us all by leaving… u think it won’thurt me…?
Why care.you said you’ll leave anyway.
…why do you think i’m still here…why do you think i’m going thru another day of hell…cuz you guys didn’t want me to go…that’s why…so why are you going to leave even when i stay for you…
You stay for others.not me.
……
What.its true.
We can say it’s not true all we want, you won’t believe us anyway.
I’ll just tell you that you’re wrong and we do care. Not that you’ll listen to us.
I will.I do.I just have a hard time beleving it.I hurt christal.I told her I never would.but look.I did.I never ment it.I’m just a big *****
You’re only having a hard time believing it because you won’t let yourself be cared for or believe you are.
You keep your heart closed and we’ll never be able to get through until you open up.
You’re going to hurt people whether you intended to or not, I’m sure your friend will come to forgive you soon.
She has.
And I can open up.I get hurt.
*cant
If you were dead imagine what pain crystal will have to face…
She may have to make a choice but its not as bad as guessing what could’ve happened if she did this.
She would die too.alyssa aswel
We can’t help if you shut us out and push us away.
I know ningyou
You would not do your friends (on this site and in your school) a favor if you died. Everyone will be blaming themselves for picking on the bi kid, your friends will be hating themselves for not opening up to you more, even your parents will miss you. They may not appreciate your sexuality but they do appreciate your life, which is more important to most familys, whether your gay or not.
Its not my sexuality.its the fact I can’t protect anyone
You’re protecting me and maeliin.
“Something” is very different from “nothing”.
How
Huh
Talking to you is one more reason to the growing list of why i shouldn’t try to OD on my dad’s pills or try to hang myself.
There’s lots of people on here you’ve helped.
In addition to talking to maeliin, don’t think i forgot about you maeliin.
@smiling… ._. nya..
nikki? smiling? u 2 still here?
I’m still here, sorry also working on english (i didn’t have to present today, which was good cause i have a lot of gaps and mistakes on mine).
oh, i’m sorry, work then ^^ (i lack the energy 2 do my homework so instead i’m sitting here typing and staring at my wall..)
What about in study hall or before 1st period?
we don’t have study hall…and i guess i could do stuff then but really i lack energy all day round..
It’s fine, i just need to do some editing to my document.
Ah that sucks cause i always do my gov’t homework before first period and i have gov’t first period. You gotta find a way, there’s long term problems to that.
x.x hehe, well i hope you do good!
THanks, you too *hug maeliin in case i have to get off immediately
*hugs smiling* (: b safe and have a good day <3
Thanks you too *hug maeliin again
*hugs again too* ^^ (sry i just lovehugs ^^ 😀 i’m installing adobe flash on my laptop, i’ll be able 2 show u some animations soon!)
Awesome!!! Can’t wait to check them out.
(: smiling i’m rly glad ur my friend ^^
Thank, i’m also glad too we’re friends 🙂
🙂 >_< well imma start my bio homework… x.x god it's 20 till midnight and i've not started anything yet…
I hear ya, i remember doing that last year, really ticked off my parents. I never get why sure its late but its so quiet in the evening, helps me concentrate. Hated biology last year. Wish i had the other bio teacher, heard he was awesome. Hope you finish your homework in time.
x.x if i’m not actually sick in the morning imma fake sick and hope for an extra day to get caught up…
Hope you succeed, just remember to muster the energy to get that work done and have reserves for the makeup work you’ll miss that day.
x.x yea…well if i work all day and don’t get distracted then i can probably do it..
i doubt mom’ll let me stay home again…but if i make myself throw up she might be semi-convinced…
If she gets a thermometer try heating it til 100*F, i think. 90 is norm i think. Have a fan running to show you think its too hot for you. Hope the day off will help you catch up.
>_< k. g2g byebye *hug*
bye maeliin *hug maeliin
I love you guys.and I hope I did save you.all three of you.