anyone want to tell me why the fuck Alyssa my so called best friend called me a *****? She doesn’t care if I leave now. Now I know for certain everything was a lie. Every word she said to me. She never loved me. She never was my bestfriend.I
I knew it was to good to be true. I knew I couldn’t have friends. That’s just me. I think she right. I am a *****. Who should die..
nikki123
so tell me why my fucking step dad thinks he can yell at me just cuz he’s married to my mom.he said that I can’t be friends with this guy my mOm did too but he was yelling.he’s not my dad.he can’t tell me what the fuck to do!don’t I hate my mom for marrying him at times.and I hate my biological dad for dying on me.
ive thought about it alot.I feel like I should go.my so called best friend doesn’t even want me here anymore.I don’t have any other choice then.I have to die.right? I have no other option….right? This is the only thing I can do to fix it all?
Sp is getting taken.my mom found out.she will know everything.
I love you all so much.you all hav me email.please message me any time.I love you all.
Good bye
My job…is to help and savd the people I love.
but I fail at it.
I cant save girl.I can’t save angel ash.I can’t save biscuit of death.
why can’t I do ny job?
what am I doing wrong?
I don’t understand.
Today was going good till I thought about angel ash.
I was with my girl(I wish she was mine) after school.her bf stayed of corce.
He’s going to see his ex this weekend.like wtf!he’s hurting christal and he doesnt care!
Best part is..they kissed in front of me.
Good thing yhat happened…is she came to my house.we each had a sip of this kick ass vodka!
It was some awesome shit.
But down side….my friend alyssa is. Madcuz she thinks I like christal more(friend wise)
That’s not true.I love them the same.I just like christal…more then a friend.
Today gad its ups and downs.
I told […]
That’sl all I have to say.
I don’t think I told you what else happened today…oh well:/
So I was at the libaray with my sister and christal.
Christal gets a text from daniel her bf.
she turns around.
There he is.
So I just sut there while they kiss and hold hands.
she made me stay and be torchered.
Its like fifty knives and over fifty billion bullets in my chest to watch her with him.
I wanted to go cry so bad.
I couldnt….she wouldn’t let me leave:/
Tell me why:
My mom hates me
My family hates gays and bis
No one loves me
no one cares
I cant save anyone
I can’t fix my life
Everyone I love either dies or leaves
God won’t help me
I can’t do anything wright
I can’t talk anyone out of suicide
I fucck everything up
I’m hated
I’m unwanted
I’m unneeded
I’m worthless
My bestfriends alyssa and markel are gone.they talk to m on acasion sure.but hey hate me.I told them I’m bi..they said okay? They just vdont care.dumb thing is….I still love them.
sorry I post about my crapy love or friendship life.this one gets better.don’t worry.
my friend christal…she’s gone too.she think liked me.then changed her mind.she has a bf now.I see them together every day.yesterday…I couldn’t take it.I cried at school for once.
yea stupid I know.
But hey.guess what..almost everyone in my family is dying:
My daddy. 🙁
my mom
grandpa
Grandma
my uncle(s)
pets
everyone.
So why sould I stay when I will […]
KILL MEEEEEEEE! I HATE THIS! I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE! MAELIIN! HELP MEE!
ANYONE! HELP MEE
My best friend.i have a huge crush on her.she says she loves me.but just not the way I love her.I help her find the perfect guy…well i try anyway.but really I’m sad.I want everyone to reject her so I can have her.for me.all to me.is that wrong?hat else can I do?she’s not sure if she’s bi.she says she needs time.I give her time.but its killing me.
and my other friend.I love her too.she’s the best.we aren’t best friends.but I guess we are close.sad part is.she has a bf.I cry myself to sleep.iknow she’s happy.I’m happy for her.but…I want mto be happy too.
cutting does that.it […]
Why do I mess everything up.I f’d up everyones life.maeliin.I’m sorry about the poem thing.I was being a jerk.I have no friends.non that care anyway.tge only thing they care about it me being bi.which u hate.I’m me.I’m not to their standards.I want to be.but I’m not.
My life is f’d up.why do I f up everyone elses too.
I don’t mean to.it just happenes.I hate it.I hate me.someone kill me before I do.I can’t break mine and maeliin’s promise:/
I have family who love me.but my dad died when I was 2.
No one cares about me.
My grandpa is dying.
My mom may die.
I’m hated.
I’m ugly.
I feel fat so I dont eat but one meal a day.
I’m bisexual.
I lose everyone I cared about.(few people)
I have like no friends.
I cut.
I hate myself.
my mom thinks I’m nothing.
My mom blames me for being born and wasting her money.
I’m stepfather hates me.
I will get disowned if I come out to my mom.
And lastly…I want to freaking die!
oh….and the girl I love….is with some […]
can someone help me?I umm….I just accepted that I’m bi.I told few people.about half accept me.but I know my family wont.all I want at this point is to end it.end everything.end me.please.someone.help?