I’m going to my theripst apointment this morning but I’m afraid to tell her and my family that I’m so depressed and suicidal. My mom will be there which makes it harder because I’m afraid to tell her. Everyone I’ve talked to says to me and my mom “maybe she should go to the hospital”. I don’t want to go there and be away from my family. They say they care and will try to help but I can’t confide in them. My moms going through a divorce and my sister has a stalker and is trying to break up with her boyfriend and the rest of my family is having problems with other stuff. My moms got alot to deal with and I don’t want to make it worse. Her grandma died and her grandpa is sick and might die and were having finacal trouble. Everyone is busy and I feel like I’m a burden. My mom, doctor, and theripist say I shouldn’t worry and that I’m should tell them if I feel this way but I don’t want to make them worry and IÂ feel like I’m in the way. I told my mom once but that made her worry and shes got so much to deal with that I feel guilty. I don’t know if she told anyone in my family about this but I hope not because they have alot to deal with right now to. I need some advice from someone who understands. I’ve been keeping it secret that I’m on this site so she won’t know. I need help!
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Brittany, I’ve coached a lot of people in your kind of situation as I had to navigate myself through a lot of similar stuff with my own family. You’re not alone…..at this point, you’re doing your best, and that’s all I’d encourage you to do..
There is no right or wrong thing to do, just make a choice about what you feel comfortable sharing. To be honest, I would encourage you to keep seeing your therapist and eventually without your mom.
When I fist went a saw a psychiatrist, he categorized me and didn’t help me at all…he just had his view and didn’t listen to why I felt the way I did and basically wasn’t on my team…so you have to see if this therapist is someone you can trust.
I’d be happy to talk to you should you feel comfortable doing that. We could shed some light on your situation.
There’s a lot of info out there about family systems theory…(I know this may be knew to you)…but it explains the optimum environment for a child to grow up in and if you’re not experiencing that…which it seems you’re not, you can use the information to help you understand how to make good choices for yourself and to not be emotionally steam rolled by your current family dynamic as it is confusing and overwhelming….If you’re truly wanting help…do what is best for you!!! Everyone else can look after themselves…just get yourself to a place of safety and calm within yourself. You can do it…Good luck. clnrch7@yahoo.ca