Hey all, my name is Mark, I have a loving girlfriend and some good friends. I recently lost a job that i loved. I suffer from depression, it started after my mother died 10 years ago.Â i really don’t want to suffer anymore. I struggle everyday with the simplist things, like getting out of bed, eating, washing. It all seems utterly pointless and I want it to end. Seriously, i’m 40 years old i’m not some depressed kid (no disrespect meant). You get to a point in your life when you realise there is no point. Those I love will remember me for a while and they’ll recover from the loss. I know some of you will try and offer advice but really i don’t want it. I’ve tried many different antidepressants and they do very little to help.Â What I want to know is if i take 21 2mg diazepam and 28 20mg citalopram, and perhaps 20 cyndol (codine) will it do the job? I’m not being over emotional here, i just need to know. Thanks for any tips you can give.