everyday trying

i am 24 year i took medication 6 or 7 medication of blood pressuer .. nothing happens to me yet , but it has got worst now from the last year it has got very worst…situation at my place .. dont have a job and i cannot find a job….. and also if i have a job nothing will end the constant fight …because after 8 or 10 hours there is night i dont pick my friend phone,,, dont talk with anyone .. hate going out also .. and if i  go out my mind keep wondering at home…. in my family i feel only for my mom no one else ….. i now day try to overdose with medicine ,,,,,, i dont lie that i am afraid of dying .. but because of constant fight ………..the fear of living is more than fear of dyingg…. i cant concentrate on anything else . today after a fight  my dad said if i want to die i should not jump from 4 floor but jump from 10 floor .. so there is no chance of me living….. after all this everyday i wish i die while sleeping .