Do you ever feel like your just going through the motions of life? Well that is exactly what I am doing. Go to work, come home, go to work, come home. What exactly is the point of it all? Why continue? I am in my mid thirties and my life is the farthest thing from what I expected it to be right now. I have had depression off and on all my life but it has never been stronger then it is now and I have never had a stronger desire to end it all then I do right now.
The only thing holding me back right now is my family but I dont think that will hold me back much longer. They all have great lives and will get over it eventually. I am done going through the motions, maybe not today or tomorrow but soon….
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This looks like something I would post. At least it’s somewhat similar to what I did post. I’m tired of merely existing. Routine, routine, routine. It gets old very quickly. I don’t see any point either. Sometimes I think of drowning it out with alcohol or some other substance but I don’t want to create a dependency on crap like that and besides, everything’s back to the way it was once the high is gone.
Glad you’re still here though. It’s nice to know I’m not alone in feeling the way I do.