My heart wants to unite
But never can
In this dirty world because
any kindness is abused
by the human mind
If only alone for an hour
I am absent from your words
the emptiness begins to crush me
in a way so painful – indescribable
So Why not unite
as a family – in death
I’ve been out before…
The human existence separates us all
And I’ve given up on it
I don’t understand
what we’re waiting for…
There’s nothing left
for me in this world – for you?
I need to go home
There is no substitute…
I am counting the days
I am waiting…
And I’m going crazy
There can not be
Not another year
It is simply impossible
My longing, my yearning
Makes my every activity here
Seem completly worthless
Where are my spiritual mates?
Where are my equals?
The ones I am one with…
Where are you???
I need you so bad now…
Please don’t leave me here in the cold now
I am longing for you…
44 comments
wow that is so beautiful! you are an amazing writer! i think that you should like write a book of poems or something, im serious.
oh that is so kind, i actually think my skills for poems are very low but i try anyways. thank uuu =)
oh, hi! i think you did very well… =) how old are u?
hey ashlie, im 20, how about you?
im 16, well, in three days. =)
r u boy or girl?
boy, germany
girl, america
kewl!! my family originate from just above you.
do you think that america is kewler than germany? cuz i think germany is kewler than america, were boring, unless you know how to party.
no i find germany to be quite boring, really. =/
REALLY?!?!?!? thats incredible?!?!?! i wish i lived in germany, that would be awesome, yah know? i feel soo weird here thogh, like i dont belong, cuz im like the ONLY 15-16 year old… is that bad?
i do feel like i dont belong to the world…
yeah, me too. why do u think you feel that way? are you like, depressed or wat? ill tell you my story if u like.
but i kinda want to know urs too, yah know?
do you have messenger? =)
like an email address? yeah.
its a chat program. got yahoo mail? its got an integrated chat aswell. add me rocky1990b @ yahoo . de (remove spacings)
ummm… i dont have yahoo anymore, but i have hotmail,
littlesister2011@hotmail.com
just email me there.
ive g2g, im in school and getting ready to switch classes, im on here everyday except sat. and sun. this time tho, kk?
later this evening then?
i would love to hear your story whenever u get back. let us use windows live messenger =)
like, emailing right? oh, btw, im back but in another class. hahaha
no its chatting, just like here…
ooohhh, like facebook?
explore.live.com/windows-live-messenger?os=othe
download it, create an account and than add my email adress in your windows live messenger, so we can talk =)
whatever is there, got Skype, icq, uugh IRC, steam?? got any of those?
i dont even know what half of those are? dont u know wat facebook is?
i cant do it now anyway, its blocked on these god forsaken computers, ugh!
hah, i know what you mean. highschool laptops…
let me just find an online chatroom real quick, brb
go here:
http://webchat.quakenet.org/
nickname: ashlie
channel: Rocky1990b
and you’ll find me there…
thats blocked too…
just email me! dont you have an email address?
ok go to
http://server.guessasketch.com/play/
press on play then go through the list of rooms and find “rocky1990” and join… the password for the room is ashlie…is this blocked too?
yep… srry
my school is really stupid and retarded, they even have the childrens hospital cite blocked they are messed up!
there is no way around it until my friend bennett hacks thru the system in may, i think its the 7th or something… sooo.
lol ok…i’ll keep trying tho.
https://edit.yahoo.com/registration?_intl=uk
go here and create a yahoo mail account. The reason is because if you have a yahoo account you get a browser-based chat messenger there and you can chat with me there.
ok, im in.. my email is ashlieallred@yahoo.co.uk
did you get it?
ya i just got your mail.
hahaha.. 🙂 thats awesome, r u gonna be on here this time tommorrow? ill be, classes r over soon, so ill be leaving in like, maybe fifteen or twenty minutes…
yea most likely i will, no time this afternoon?
ashlie lets please get this yahoo chat thing going, i sent you another mail showing you a picture of it…
i saw it, waiting for it to load…
didn’t it work?? hm…