me….?

I’m not trying to be rude, so please don’t take this wrong. But killing yourself over a male is over used. While i know the feeling of being watched all the time, I still know that some things just aren’t right, no matter how much I want to rebel. I dated a girl and I myself am one, I wasn’t bi or gay even. I just wanted to piss my mom off. I was always sad then, and the girl was so nice. But you know what happened? She was four years older than me, and she always pinned me to the bed and touched me, kissed me.. She never did anything more such as rape, but she’d always tell me I wanted it. While she supported me, and said she loved me, she was using me until she found a girl her age. Now I am being harassed by her. Why? Because after my mother found out I secretly saw her. And I regret not telling her. Now, I can’t. If I do, her trust in me will forever be broken because I wanted to rebel. Before you want to act like you wanna die, remember that he could very well be after you for other reasons- As is common with older men.