my life has been so crazy and if uve been reading and keeping up with my life u’d know im scared of my dad i have a boyfriend who makes me happy and sad and mad and my mom took me to ct.
Im home from ct and i lived with my boyfriend for about 6 months i am 7 months pregnant tht happened when i ran away -__- now tht im havin his baby and hes going to jail soon i gotta do it by myself i moved out away from him to live with my dad but i miss him soooo much […]
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i didnt want to come here but it seems its the last place tht i can really just vent….i fukked up. boy, did i fukk up …. it wasnt supposed to be this way im only 17 lifes a ***** then u die i guess we’re not suppose to choose when but we can if we wanted
i believe in god i really do but y does He keep pushing my needs off. Everybody gets everything they want and im stuck with wht i got. What if God was one us? what would u say to Him? what would u do? what do you think He would say to u? What do u think he’d do? i honestly dnt know how to answers these questions cuz ive made mistakes in life but who doesn’t? Still i feel like he’s ignoring me. Idk if he wants me to be happy or make others happy, i guess making others happy is suppose to make […]
i dont think that everyone on here realizes that this site has helped me out with the really tuff times everybody on here can relate and thts something u cant do on facebook or myspace or any other social network at that u cant post anything about death on those sites or else everybody starts flipping shit so i just wanna say thanks i think ive found my way c u when i get more problems but for now u wont c me for awhile bye sucide project until we meet again.
So I ranaway on Wednesday night. I didn’t even mean to. I. Snuck out of the house for the millionth time and when I. Came back there was a cop in front of the house I was terrified so I didn’t go home y would I’m so fukking scared of my father. It is now Sunday. And I’m still alive … I’m actually happy so it really took all this shit I’ve been through to became happy I’m with the one who makes me much more happy then he makes me mad and those people are hard to find nowadays. I’m movving with my […]
so i’ve officially lost it! I havnt slept in 4 days no literally 4 days wide open eyes no dreams. It’s nuts i need pills lots of ’em! I can’t help but want to take drugs for some reason… i don’t know. I want them. yesterday when i was with my boyfriend he had asked me to go to a website called drugs.com it tells you the side effects and diefferent info about a perscription pill that you could’ve recieved from your doctor…. well anyway he had me look up some drug that was for like anti-pyshotic actions or something and that moment when i […]
i started smoking again bad idea.. but it did calm me down you have no idea what i’ve been through the last three days… oh and thanks to those who gave me there emails that’s real sweet. Makes me feel good. something i havnt felt in awhile…i think im gonna try some hard core drugs, im nervous but i’ve seen people do it and it helps them cope right? well, anyone try anything really illegal? crystal meth? heroin? crack? coke? i just want to know before i ruin my life… but for the last three days i’ve been putting on a show for these people!! […]
everytime i get close to someone they either leave me or really hurt me, and i mean badly… My homophobic father is not making it easy for my brother (he’s already out), or me to even come out. My boyfriend knows im bi and he gets jealous when im around girls… lol he laughs and acts like he’s not uncomfortable but come on girls can read guys like books! He is on the other hand getting on my freaking nerves… i went to a website that tells you your ideal suicide and mine is railroad decapitation (ouch!) at the end of the survey they tell […]
Am i ever gonna be able to trust anyone again? i’m afraid at this point i have no one to turn to for advice or help…. i was going to do “it” when i was home alone the other day i hate finding the courage and letting it run away… im more scared then i have ever been in my life…. if i have one….. more or less to i want do keep it? that’s the real question right? whether or not we want to live…. even though it’s not really our choice whether we live or die we still have the power to take life […]
-There is nothing i wouldn’t do for my sisters.
-i never say no to my dad when he asks me to do something…
-i know he’ll make me do it anyway.
-Yesterday i packed all my stuff to leave with no idea where i was going.
-I tell my boyfriend im going crazy and he acts like he doesn’t care.
-I told him he’s supposed to comfort me and tell me it’s going to be ok.
-he doesn’t.
-I walk a fucking straight line for these people!
-i don’t have to.
-i don’t do drugs anmd im not an alcoholic.
-i don’t plan on getting […]
my brother is gay and my father is homophobic and doesn’t like gays at all….i am just a little but i would never come out cuz im very scared of what he’d say… im thinking of leaving home but i know my dad won’t let me go… so either i run away or i take the easy way out…. u know what i mean. Just saying… if this kid goes to jail then i won’t have a place to stay. His mom is the nicest person in the world to me and she really likes me and i really like her… it’s his baby mom […]