I’m not here to share any suicide story, I’m here just talk talk in public for the 1st time in my life…and yet it’s not about me..
I’m that closed person, my head is my home, I am a strong guy and everybody around me knows that..
I have been through a lot, it’s true and nobody can say it was nothing, it was all reall hard and still.
but as I said I’m here not to talk about myself or to share a suicide story, I’m here to talk about the ruin of the most beautiful thing I have ever had, the best thing I ever had, my only safe place outside of my head…
she was just a girl, a girl I decided to be with two years ago…
when I really didn’t want anyone and only wanted to be alone for my own strength..
she was depressed and she actually used to post things here, I really tried hard to make her happy or at least just make her feel better…and by time…she became a little better, it made me happy…and there the problem started…
when I started paying attention to the relationship and my part in it…the girl was so innocent and good, she started to change and treat me like shit, and everytime she hurt me and we fought…I had to solve it as if it was my fault…
by time I really started ignoring that, I started spoiling her….she became more mean… and she started to go away
I had to get insulted everyday, and the problem it wasn’t like she meant it..or she did… I don’t know…but back to that times I really believed how innocent she was…
she left me and broke me many times…and everytime she did, I talked to her and found out that she already flipped it and made it my fault, she came up with things everytime…
she loved me..I believe so..
but now she left and started accusing me, talking shit about me to everyone…
I found out she has been talking badly about me, she called me a freak, a psycho, and just yesterday I have heard more stupid things about me…that I’ve been looking for animal porn, and making sex calls..
that really hurt me, I mean I was that badass guy before I knew her, but since we got together I didn’t even have any girl friends, or talked to any other girl…
and today, it’s my fault….
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Yeah…basically she screwed you over?
wow i hate that
i am a girl myself but i hate girls like that
can i ask what her name on hear was
and how you knew about it
as a part of what I have been trying to do, “making her feel better” I used to stalk her to know how she really felt like
This all does not seem fair to you at all.
@Amber, how are you hon?
I think I get where your coming from. I am in a relationship, that has been 2 years long. I was a badass before, but now, I’m not so sure. Things change and so do people. But in relationships its always a two person thing so nothing is all your fault, try to remember that. You seem like a good guy and you sound like you tried to help. But relationships are not easy and more times then not they change you. But your not alone. I hope this helps in some way. If you wanna talk just let me know.
you’re a good person willing to help her, it’s definitely not your fault, she does that cause she’s got issues with herself, and she’s reacting it on you. you have to tell her that, so that she’ll realize it. I don’t know how to handle a person like that, actually it’s sad that she’s doing that and as you say, she doesn’t even mean it. maybe you should walk away every time she gets mad ( before she gets mad), let her calm down and talk to her later when she’s calmed down (and hopefully she’s sorry for what she;s done at that time)
maybe she does have some issues, but I knew her for a long time like almost three years now
I tried to go away when she was mad but it has always ended up my fault, that I didn’t care and just walked away…
she doesn’t talk to me or answer my calls anyway
She’s acting out the way she was raised. Someone, probably a dysfunctional parent, taught her that the way you behave towards people you love is to abuse them. It’s not really her fault but you are going to need a lot of strong will and a lot of resources in understanding human psychology if you are going to deal with her, or even your own hurt from being with her.
i wish i could help you cause you seem like the perfect guy and you seem to really love her, it’s so stupid of her to act like, you actually care about her. and yes, it’s all about her past, why she’s like this.
@Bella_87
thx