The secret to life is
that there really is no secret
the purpose of living
to see how long you can trick your brain
into thinking that there is some purpose
but really none of it matters
even everything that matters
so much right now
in a couple weeks
I’ll finally be gone
in a few years the people
who thought I mattered
will soon forget I ever was
and someday they’ll all be gone too
everyone who ever witnessed my existence
then eventually this world I called home
will cave into itself and be no more
and the sun, barely a twinkle in the vast
expanding universe
will one day quit shining
and all of it for nothing
everything that ever was
or ever could have been
but all of it for nothing
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hey sigh, I can completely relate but I dont think your family will ever forget if you end it in a couple weeks. That is the only thing holding me back is my family, its the battle between 30, 40, 50 years of suffering vs hurting my family. Kind of a no win situation. If you dont mind me asking what is so bad that you want to end it in a couple weeks?
I feel exactly the same way *hugs*
my life isn’t that bad, I mean there are things I would love to change and somethings that I know I can’t change, but honestly its beyond all that. Its the feeling, the emptiness the dread http://suicideproject.org/2011/03/dread-2/
i just can’t make it go away, not with therapy, not with drugs, nothing but death
yeah I know what you mean, i feel the same way…do you have a plan? are you for sure going to end it in a couple weeks?
i know the feeling too. but your family and friends would miss you so much and if you comit suicide it could cause someone else to follow suit. like a ripple in a pond it may be one pebble thrown but it effects everyone.
yea i have my plan, just have wait for all the pieces to line up and then i’ll be gone, and i know my family will be sad, they don’t deserve my death, but i dont deserve this life so i guess i have to be selfish this time
Your poem says what I’ve been thinking since I was about 15. I like it . 🙂
Since then I’ve thought human life, and mine in particular, is about as pointless as that of a colony of bacteria on a piece of cheeze.
Its always mystified me why those stupid bacteria keep on multiplying.
Don’t they KNOW that in a couple of days (if I haven’t killed myself yet) I’m going to put them in a cheeze toasted?
Their world is going to melt and bubble and they are going to be scorched.
Any left alive after that are going to be mashed up by my molars then sent down a chute to the bubbling mess of hydrochloric acid in my stomach.
They should quit now, and stop turning my cheeze green. That damn mould could kill me! If I haven’t got there first.
Honestly, I think the purpose of life is the “what” so to speak, once we find out what the “what” is, we have no reason to live, and therefore die. Life is just a journey to find the “what”. Just my take 😉
the purpose of life is for the end of everything……is it though?
I personally for one believe that, although we all here might not know the *real* purpose of life (or maybe you’re right, there ISN’T any purpose!),
but the sort of ‘amazing’ thing is that EACH of you here DO ‘thinking’ and ‘pondering’ about it at some/certain points in your life.
So really,..could all these ‘thinking & pondering’ lead to *SOMETHING* grander, more mysterious, than we’ve presently know today??…
in other words, could all these ‘Purpose-thinking’ (whether you believe or not it exists!) seems *inherent* in humans,..could actually DO really lead to *SOMETHING* bigger than us, even than this whole physical Life -as we’ve known- itself?… maybe that mystery is the ‘answer’ to this whole “Purpose” questions, and who knows,..maybe it’s WAY too-early to say/conclude that after we die, it would be a Nothingness!…?
I, for one, remain Open-minded, to find the ‘answers’ to that…
We are terribly a ‘finite’ human after all…
1) limited by our five-senses ONLY,
2) only exist very YOUNG on the Earth’s history, let alone this Universe’s history!
3) and limited as well by our ‘three-dimensional’ (length, width, & depth) physical existence.
So,..there are imho so many things we haven’t fully known yet..
in fact, even the latest scientific article I’ve read about a week ago stated that we might have to REVAMP the WHOLE science,..just like how back then the notion “Earth is flat and we are at the center of Universe” have to be revamped totally!
If you dont mind me asking what is your plan? you can email me if you dont want to put it on here.