A coffin would be way too nice…

It’s my last day online, for tomorrow me and my partner are heading out to that beautiful location that points 350 feet down to freedom. Initially I didn’t want to say goodbye but I’m bored and so I guess I’ll write until time runs out. I’m not exactly sure what to tell the world, like fuck you all or be blessed. Tomorrow, I’ll celebrate like there’s no tomorrow… (haha! ironic, isn’t it) and I know i will for It’ll be the best day of my life. I have no guilt or regrets and I will not miss anything here although some of you have truely shown yourselves to be great souls and I guess I’ll miss you and if we share paths I hope that you’ll find the courage to go through with this as have I, cause in the very end, ourselves are the only one we have and there is noone else to come and save us.

It strikes my heart deeply to see all the failures of attempted exits ending up in hospital and getting brainwashed by psychiatry, having their wills broken by relentless force and drugging until they start feeling like living again even though they don’t want to, just because they are struck with so much fear of what the profession will do to them yet again, should they attempt ending their lives once more.

I hate your fucking guts, society and I am praying for tidal waves and meteor showers and every fkn disease that can immobilize man’s cruel hand in the world. I’d like to see it all flushed down like the toilet human civilization is for there is nothing we have learned and if I had the red button in front of me right now, I’d absolutely smash it and liberate the world from humanity and humanity from itself.

Oh and by the way, I’m so goddamn annoyed by all these pussies going  “yea…im gonna kill myself on the day xx…” how many of you actually had the balls to go through with it – 5% is my estimate. None of you have an idea just how much will and perseverance it requires to make this decision and actually go through with it, you don’t just say it from the tip of your tongue…