My name is morgan im 21 and i was a popular cheerleader in highschool, got good grades. And right now i have a great job and i make good money. But my life isnt what i want it to be i cant find my complete happiness. All day I sit and stare off and think about ways to end it all and then i think how i can stop these thoughts. How can i be proud of myself and let things go. I miss my old life and i no i can never have it back but it kills me that i dont wanna wake up in the morning. I go to work then i have to take care of everyone else and im forgeting about myself i should be having fun i mean im 21 its the best years of my life. But to me im not even living im just a robot doing everything im told all the time by my family and my boss and i cant get out of this funk im in. I tried killing myself i always fail so i figure my body does want to live my mind just wants to die. Well thats my expression for the day! Talk to me if you would like!
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awww maybe you just need to cut loose and have some fun
fuck that, who says 21s the best years of your life, make everyday the best day of your life, enjoy every moment of sight and pain and emotion, feel that feeling that everyone forgets to feel, feel alive. fuck your boss, fuck your family, fuck your life. if they truly understood how you feel then theyd understand its just they never will so its not their fault. my advise is to veto everything in your life right now, good and bad. sell everthing you have and just leave, go travelling. not travelling in the sense of club med and sight seeing but just rock up in some foreign villiage with nothing but your card for emergencies and gps. get a job, help the villiage a lil then move on. youve no idea just how amazing you will feel. right now youre not experiencing any of the exhilarating dangers or leaving a positive mark on this world, just go out into the real world the government shelters you home and remember that it just all about leaving the world a slightly better place to how you found it. and who knows, maybe someday there wont be a single person in the world who has to suffer what you are now.
my emails lauriejohnson1@hotmail.co.uk drop me a line if you want, im here if you need me
What was so good about the “old days” that you miss now, Morgan??
The old days i was a free spirit my family was together we had fun every summer. I had my own room and place now im bouncing back and forth between my grandmas and boyfriends i dont have a room i never get me time. it just sucks. i want my family back and my old years back where i didnt have to have so much responcibilities and no one was on my case all the time.
I can tell you’re in a much better position than most ppl here. For starters you have a partner.
Responsability is all part of adulthood. Get use to it. It’s not a bad thing. It’s a sign you’re worthy and trusted. The more responsabilities you have is the result of the better person you are.
Bouncing back and forth between two places is better than being stuck in some dull little town like I, trust me. I use to bounce back and forth between a city and town during my teenage years, and like you are now, I didn’t like it at the time. But looking back, those days were fun. Each place was different and special in its own way. Coming back to the same home every evening and waking up in the same bed every morning isn’t as fun (I’m not saying it’s bad either, it’s just not as fun and adventerous).
Please try look at the positives further down the road because I can already sense there are some waiting for you and I’m a miserable, depressed bastard myself.