They say it’s a sin,
to feel pain from within.
I don’t know, it may be true.
But if it’s a sin,
it will happen again,
I can’t help but feel so blue.
It won’t go away,
everything is so grey,
what am I supposed to do?
I don’t care what they say,
I can’t face the day,
with this life I am all through.
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wow i feel like that :/. Who knows what we are going to face tomorrow.
there are times I don’t even want to wake up to find out…. today was one of those.
i know i just want to fall asleep and never wake up; so i dont have to deal with the fact that i will be tease or mock tomorrow.
I wish I never wake up so I wouldn’t hear my father get angry at me for little things, so I wouldn’t face the fact that the boy I love died, I won’t see my ugliness in the mirror……… I won’y inherit my parents problems. Just a few more months………….
I wish I never wake up so I wouldn’t hear my father get angry at me for little things, so I wouldn’t face the fact that the boy I love died, I won’t see my ugliness in the mirror……… I won’t inherit my parents problems. Just a few more months………….
It’s not a sin to hurt–we all hurt some times but it would be a terrible shame for you to give up because things feel rough right now. I am rooting for you and I know it cannot be easy.
“They say it’s a sin,
to feel pain from within.”
That line says so much. That’s the problem with society, isn’t it? We’re not allowed to hurt inside (or they send us to a shrink). We’re not allowed to talk about it (or they send us to jail). And we’re not allowed to do anything about it (or they send us to hell).
Brilliant poem FTS. Is this a new one or are you pulling from the archives?
Scooby,
been waitin for you to show…. it’s old…. Feb of ’05.. ’bout when I went to jail for talking about “it”
in fact when I found it this morning, it was originally written on the back of the court paperwork for my “Involuntary Hospitalization”….. how good is that???
haven’t written many poems recently, it’s been more journal entries…. the one to the cop was most recent….
Oh man, written on the back of your court papers…. that is too perfect!! Like a work of art or something! There’s a website where people send in “postcards” like that…. the site is postsecret.com You should send that in, I’m serious.
’05 was a lousy year…. I remember it well…
Anyway, wow, that really gives the poem some background. It’s really interesting how all your writings have a specific event/trauma that sparks them.
in general, outside of daily journal entries, I only write when emotions are very strong…. that usually takes something to set them off…
I know being on this forum is contradictory to what I’m about to say but….. I’m usually a pretty stable guy….. then something sets of the depression and it’s over….. very difficult to get out of the depression cycle once you start to spiral…. as I get older, each depression cycle gets worse…..
I’m willing to bet this forum is like that for all of us… here we can be insane, depressed & outta control. But in real life most of us can put our pants on correctly & maintain some sense of stability. The question is which side is closer to the “real” us?
The same probably applies to your writing… when you get strong emotions & write depressed thoughts, is that the real you coming through, or is it just a temporary insanity?
I have a theory that a person’s art is a window into their true self. Whether you’re a writer, painter, musician, etc, your creative projects mirror the person you are inside. I guess that kinda sucks for horror movie directors…
oh definitly agree with you on the part of the art being a window to the artist….. my writings are true feelings… a part of me… maybe a small part, maybe a big part, dunno….. but definitly a part…. it’s me looking inside of me…