Promise

The only thing thats keeping me alive is that promise. Since that day i can’t kill myself. No matter how hard i want to i cant. Same goes for my friend. He can’t kill himself either. I’m pretty sure he is doing well as i feel there is a gun pointing to mine head. I cant take it anymore >- < i feel like im crying on the inside and it hurts. v- v it hurts alot. I'm trying my hardest, but i dont know anymore. Maybe just staying in my room all my life can help. Or have insanity take its course. I cant promise anything now, but later on who knows what will happen nexts…