Rogue Shadow… My dad made me believe in god for so many years. I only wanted to make him proud, then I got bullied and saw the truth, I ended up hating it so much. I tried my best to stop listening. I rebelled, and he beat me for it. He decided to take full force on me to get me to listen. Then, after a month, he broke. He gave up trying to make me something I didn’t want. He gave up on me in a way. Over these few days, I learned that there’s still a such thing as a conciounce and I decided to make it Rogue Shadow. All he is is an alter ego, smart, cunning, feared, infamous, heroic, and otherwise amazing. That was my image of him. All he was was the part of me, the leader, the wise one, the smart one before choking out. He’s my conscience and I talk to him. Or at least I try to. It only works in dire situations, where I’m upset or something. 2 nights ago, I sent a pic message with a pic of myself and my conversation with Rogue Shadow. It was stupid of me to write it. Sometimes I wish I was insane. I wanna break already. I am tired of talking to people already, I can almost always predict what they will say. It’s probably because I want to feel pity that i keep going at it.
Sorry, if you notice it’s like not formatted, just a bunch of sentences in different paragraphs.
I decided a while ago to take action, take chances, even though I still don’t. I want to keep it in my head. It reminds me to go for it sometimes, maybe it will backfire on me and caus me to take the chance of suicide… Probably not, but I /wish/ it would. I know Rogue Shadow ain’t real, but I want to brainwash myself into believing he is. I try so hard to brainwash myself. My mind may go blank at times and I babble on about crap, but that’s what I get for choking out. I want Rogue Shadow to be there. I don’t want to be alone, even if my view of him is the Christian version of the devil, a manipulative, serpent-like, cold-blooded killer. I always wanted to be a coldblooded assassin. It would be fun to have weapons. I love guns, I was watching videos a while ago and started dosing off and began hearing things. First, it was a gun firing, then explosion, neighbor talking, and other noises, one called my name jk. I think that last part was me wishing it was. Right now I’m the observational and cunning Rogue Shadow. I’m able to think logically and so it keeps me sane, but if something were to eliminate /me/, then would I stay sane??? Im trying to figure out what my friends would say. Let’s see, they wouldnt answer my question and instead say,” Wow… Sometimes I think like that too. Just know that even though you think you need to do things alone (dosing off again)… Just know that even though you think you need to do things alone, I’m here for you. I like what you wrote, your observations are interesting. And I care about you…
Yeah, probably, what about you? “Never there, you’re never there, never there, youre never, ever, ever , ever, ever there”. Song stuck in my head sorry. Also, a quite that was always my favorite…
“Life is like a movie, if you’ve sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn’t gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early.” -Doug Stanhope…
Also for all you pussies that give up and whine about it (like me)… Shut up Nathan, Rogue Shadow is talking… Read this quote…
“…Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling…People who keep stiff upper lips find that it’s damn hard to smile.” -Judith Guest.
“Rogue Shadow has reduction of feeling, cold-blooded and a killer suits him, a whined like Nathan, yeah thats called being a coward. And then suicide, get off the damn computer, and do something about it. Quit whining, back 15- whatever years people didn’t believe in depression and all those psycological defects. Go to war and tell me about your night terrors. Some of you went to war, good job, but I wouldn’t know about night terrors, I’m just an observational teenager, age 16, who wants to make sure no more lives were lost because you’re cowards. Stand up and fight, there’s a war coming soon, we need brothers and sisters to fight together in it, it may be world war 3, it may be a revolution against the government or both, but theres for sure, something big is coming, now lend me your ears and when the time comes, fight against them… And not against yourselves…” -Rogue Shadow
Sorry bout that, I don’t even know if that speech is cunning, but I always wanted to lead a revolution, become a militant leader. I play COD zombies, I’m always barking orders like a drill sergeant, it’s like imagine for me. That’s what I want to be when I grow up, a leader and if not that, a killer, as in assassin, hitman, soldier, or leader…
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always on the move. always killing. never slowing, to know what you’re running from.
Unread it all. I have another half her name is Hannah ( my name is Anna) I too am sixteen. My parents use to beat me bad. Still do sometimes. I don’t believe in god. Sometimes my dad or mom will be yelling or complaining then Hannah will kicknon and be all like grow some balls or shut the fucknup. It feels so good I love when she’s around.
I read it all* sorry for the typos my fingers are asleep now damit
Haha yeah mine only kicks in when Playin video games or when i choke myself. He the one who tells me I can fight the suicidal thoughts without going mentally retarded from trying to forget by choking. I used to draw my crappy image of Rogue Shadow, a cheap imitation of Shadow the Hedgehog from a childhood show and video game
Haha lol first ur foot now ur hands u should move round. (I wanna choke out right now…) but I won’t
Hannah is everything I’m not I’m tall she’s short I’m rally skinny she’s average I’m ugly she’s absolutely stunning. I’m awkward and weird she’s social and shit. I kinda hate her. But hey I hate almost everyone so o well
That speech part is just my thinking about the illuminati and all those conspiracies, I hope theyre real, I wanna fight instead of this seemingly pointless and boring life…
Nope it’s 5am I’m on bed Im not moving shit
“I hope you and Hannah will join arms with Nathan and I, if something like a revolution or world war breaks out… n_n
Haha wow 3 hours away lol, I’m not gonna sleep, I’m listening to linking park, and Nathan is keeping me company… 🙂 I wish my real name was Rogue Shadow haha, Nathan is a boring name to me…
Has illuminati. Fucking new world order. What state are you in? I hate my name Anna anna I wish it were like something cool and catchy and unlike any other name
Haha exactly I’m in California. Have you ever wondered what the jets were doing while leaving trails of smoke behind, apparently they are Chem trails lol we have pure overcast skies nowadays it doesn’t feel like summer haha. And yeah fuck that but if he’ll breaks loose, I wanna start an army, haha it’s my vision of tue future. Have you heard papercut by linkin park, Rogue Shadow is also the demon/monster inside me waiting to come out. Can’t wait mwahahahaha XD (sometimes I wonder if I’ll go crazy hehehe)
Oi think I’m going to post a pic of Rogue Shadow for the fuck of it haha, show the demon inside, hehehe, he actually looks like a demonlike creature lol
I’m in virginia it’s raining right now. I love the rain. Hannah hates it. It ruins her hair. Such a *****. Being crazy is ok. I had a 30 minute convo with myself yesterday and he’ll I mean hell I quite enjoyed it. Fucking iPhone trying to think of what I’m gonna say it before I say it. Ten bucks says apple is part if illuminati. There’s gonna be soul sucking app by next year
Hahaha I know right I like you hahahahahaja lol but yeah let’s stock up on guns haha, I always wanted to pack an illuminati new world order ***** on a ton of lead hehhe
Omg I wish they made an app for suicide project, like notify me when I get comments and inbox and of course posting on it haha it would be awesome. I would even pay 2.99$ for it lol but no more haha
Hahah does this mean we are gonna kill Lange west. I heard he’s a part of it to! We can go in there back to back strapped to the max with a piece in each hand and just fuck shit up
Kanye west*
Haha but he’s just a puppet but yes and lady gaga I don’t like that transecmxual ***** haha but have u hear of the bilderberg conference it’s a meeting for the top people of the world to discuss shit they got caught
No! Bout to google it! I have an app called words with friends and IRS scrabble and I’m playing this one ***** she thought she was all cool by putting writers too bad a just pwnd her ass and put opaque
Where the fuck did IRS come from haha it was supposed to say its
Haha wow lets go for it haha let’s go to the bilderberg conference and bomb the fuck outta those shitheads haha and u should download the alex jones radio cuz it talks about the illuminati, he’s against them so yeah good radio. He’s talking right now about when will the people rise against the government. His answer: when the food crisis begins and riots begin… Let’s prepare to fight against the governemt
Will do. Haha wow this is weird. I’ve never like clicked this fast with a person. Yup it’s the end of the world
Remember the government doesn’t own the sun hahah
Hahaha I know right lol it is haha we know the same shit hahaha well we are teens and have the internet as a resource let’s use it to meet more people and get an army ready for sure. We can’t sit back and watch America piss everyone off and Shit haha. We must fight and also Flobots amazing band they’re like pacifists and freedom fighters their songs are amazing I’m a post stand up. Stand up stand up we shall not be moved, except by a freedom fighter dying on a cross for you… R$$T
Shit they’re tracking me my Internet went down right now O_O
Handlebars is my favorite. It was my ringtone backnon the day when I actually used the vole on my phone haha
Haha yeah it’s really awesome lol most of the rime they sing about fighting a war with armed with ur voices I’m using guns haha I don’t care if lil Wayne thinks ima ***** for hiding behind guns haha fight th government with ur fists if u want haha I wont
Lil Wayne can eat a dick. I know its a drastic change from getting to recieving but he deserves a dick on his mouth. We all know he dust kill anybody
There’s Texas Mexico and Arizona which have mexican immigrants in buses being killed and the teens fight in gladiatorial battles and the survivors become assassins holy shit we’re going against Mexican assassins Omg I wish they would take me in haha
Too bad I look white as shit.
Hahahahahhaa lol ur awesome. Rogue Shadow will be watching you haha don’t worry he will protect his allies 😀 but enemies are screwed haha
Wait what if I wanna be an enemy;) pfft Hannah how dare you say that
Hahaha well then a bullet will go through ur subconscious mind haha and yeah probably kill hannah unless I miss but I’m rogue shadow
This is true. Unless you just happen to be abducted as your pulling the trigger and the bullet curves and kills the old man sitting on the bench. Hahahah
Hehehehehhehe that old man is in the illuminati so either way I win haha
Sucks for him. Looks like he doesn’t get to retire early
Haha Ikr haha I hate spellcheck haha. (Damn my cousins hot) anyways, I heard something about Facebook/twitter revolutions. I need to research that. I wrote a while ago about how how about everyone who’s suicidal instead helps by becoming a martyr for our cause instead of suicide like that. We need those resources and fame. I would hate to use those people like that but would help our cause so much
True. But I don’t think people wanna take a pause from their fake materialistic lives to take interest in something that doesn’t effect them. Am I making sense probably not. Too busy trying to figure out what you look like did I just say that out loud no silly you wrote it I’m just ryping without realizing fuck I need sleep
Haha well if I want I can give u my number n exchange pics haha
And yes I understand people with lak of sleep lol
If u wanna txt me txt 8052638123
Baha only if we can have more epic convos like this
Hells yes you read my mind did u learn illuminati mind tricks hahahaha