Night, my favorite time of the day. I hate going outside during the day. Walking around seeing all of the happy couples walking together, holding hands, talking, and knowing that I will never be in that position. I will never be with someone. At night, I look up in the sky. View the stars, the moon and everything and think about why I am always the one who is left by myself. Why I am the one who nobody even thinks about for one second. Why I am the one who hates my life while everyone else is out enjoying theirs. Then I lay down, ready to go to sleep. And hope with all my heart that I dont wake up the next day. Yet, everyday I am disappointed because I am still aive the next morning. At night. That is when I plan to end it. End the pain. End the suffering. End the lonliness. End the sadness. End this terrible, miserable, pathetic thing that I call my life.
-End
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Couldnt have said it any better myself
Really?
@ livenolonger – I agree with Broken; I feel like your piece sums up my existence perfectly. Similar struggle, similar cycle of thoughts. Thanks so much for sharing this.
@Headlikeahole you’re very welcome
Yea this looks like something I would write. Just today I sent this massive text to my cousin about how I hat being an outcast I’ve never crossed her mind. And I told her what’s been happening with me lately with the cuttin and stuff and she had the nerve to tell me I was her best friend. She hasn’t talked to me in months. Some best friend huh. I love the night. It’s when I can run and will always have a place to hide. I hide in the darkness of my despair. The darkness of the girl that used to be me.
Wow. You are pretty awesome
Me? Pfft no
Well, that’s my opinion
Shucks thanks. Means a lot to me:)
Shucks? Havent heard that in a while. And ur welcome
Haha I tend to say things others dont. Sowwwy
Lol alrite! Great apology btw. It made u sound like a cute lil girl hahahha
I love the night too, simply because I get the peace and quiet I need. The day always brings out a whole lot of people and they get so LOUD it drives me nuts.
I breathe, think and get some relief from the darkness of the night.
@deadotter u dont like loud noises?
heh yeah I am weird like that. You know how most people find silence LOUD and need to blast the tv and stereo to cover all that silence up? I actually like the quiet.
Sometimes if a restaurant or the mall is overly crowded the hum of voices drives me nuts. I guess it makes me feel claustrophobic almost. Not in space, but in ..um sound? Yeah I know it makes no sense lol
They make no sense. How is silence loud? Silence is silent. Loudness is loud. Anyways I feel the same way. I definetly prefer silence over loud
I had a roomate once that couldn’t stand the silence, and she complained it was too loud, I guess it’s a more mental thing.
It drove me crazy because she had the radio and tv on all the time she was around. She wasn’t really watching it or listening to either one of them, she was using them as background noise.
In the end I told her to have headphones on so that I can get some peace.
Shes wasting electricity not to mention increasing ur electric bill. Did she get the headphones??
yeah the bill was high which pissed me off, so she finally settled listening to her ipod, so at least we both got what we wanted.
I’ve never really met anyone like that before, it was the first time I met someone who was so bugged when things got a little too quiet.
Hm usually its if things are too loud they get bugged