I was playing video games and my cousin comes by telling me that if I wanted to go to the mall. I not wanting to just stay home every day I went with him and his gf n baby. He’s 2 years older. The best part was after we came home and played video games. He said,” Hey, Nathan, wanna blaze it again?” I of course said yeah. We got an apple and smoked about 4 bowls before I got really high. I love it cuz it makes me talk a lot more but I can’t think straight. Hard to focus, no coordination. Stupidity caused me to feel happy again. It’s amazing. Wish to get high again, until then I shall attempt to survive. To see Jamie and all those other wonderful girls I made feel special, but I wish there was Nycolle so I can make her feel special. Blocking me fuck. I need to blaze some more. Music ain’t calming my nerves. Good antidepressants but pills are more legal than smoking marijuana. I couldn’t feel my heartbeat even though I was excited. Took me a full hour 23 minutes to lose the high and come home. Waited outside until I lost the high. It was funny I went straight to bed. I wanted to try to play call of duty and kick ass while high. But I didn’t want to risk getting caught. Before I even tried my mom was suspicious if my activities with my cousin. Wish I could get hooked up with a stash of weed. *sigh* whatever, I guess I shall spend another lonely night texting someone who may never meet me or talk to Rogue Shadow or listen to music to block out Rogue Shadow. Rogue is a lie, just a figment of my imagination. I keep wishing I could talk to him but I lose the brainwashed state of mind.
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hi…im 12 yr old….
u shouldnt mingle with drugs! they’re bad!!
I know im young…but…yeah.
Marijuana is actually a depressant, be careful. Sometimes people mistake it for helping them; in the end you just wanna get high again and forget the world. I had to quit smoking because I would end up very paranoid and I found out I had heart problems. It’s never good to rely on any sort of drug to make you feel better.. In the beginning it seems all fun but later on you need more to make you feel close to the way you felt in the beginning. It’s a dangerous path.
But anyways, give me a text sometime; 4846519899. Kudos