I just choked

I feel twitchy but it felt a lot better… I choked and panic set in as I looked out the window and saw blurry white skies… I scared myself I wanted to push harder… It didn’t work am I more resilient against it now?…. Just forgot what I was gonna say… Saw that weird white thing zoom on by again… Is Rogue Shadow back?… Haven’t heard from him in a while… My legs felt a little tingly… I am more resilient dammit… Now I must keep going…gonna try again if a few hours maybe…