3rd way

I don’t wanna live, but I don’t want to die. I had a dream last night, a man offered to do a double suicide with me; he takes my life and I take his. But I ran, I thought of the pain and ran. Granted, his offer was swords through the gut but it still makes me think that I don’t actually want to die.

I don’t want to live though either. I don’t want a life to distract from.. I don’t know what. I purposefully shun others because I don’t want to be bothered with other, more exciting lives. What most people consider winning(cash, cars, careers, diplomas, women+men, vacations etc) just bore the heck out of me. I don’t know what I’m looking for, what I’m waiting for.

An adventure that no one’s had maybe? I’ve played one too many video games..