I’m really not in a good state of mind right now, I just can’t seem to get my head clear. You see this new girl got highered at my work and i thought she was cute from the start but I never thought anything of it because well, its work. But a week or 2 later my friend tells me that she likes me so i went with it and we started talking a lot and just suddenly i really fell for her and eventually we hooked up. Then a few days later everything hit the fan…first i come into work and she is covered in hickeys like seriously nasty bruise hickeys all over her neck……then i find out it was from her X and then she tells me that she told him everything about what happened between me and her and now he wants to kill me, even though they were broken up. Then a few more days later i find out she is back with him and shes telling me not to call or text her and all this bullshit because he wants to kill me….For some damn reason I’m very attracted to this girl and i just can’t seem to get through this. Ive literally never felt so disgusted in my entire life, i feel like its eating away my insides. Ive also come to notice a big loss of appateite and i can barley sleep much unless i pass out drunk or high and every time i see her at work i just think about suicide, giving up on everything just ending it all in an instant. When i get home from work I feel horrible and empty. I know this may sound dumb because its just about a girl and all but what’s worse is how do i get rid of these feelings of wanting to die? why can’t i get over it!? I’m so tired of feeling like just a piece of shit of the floor. I really just cant take feeling like this anymore and death really does not scare me so it makes these thoughts that much more tempting
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We all go through that shit man. And no matter if every fucking person goes through it, it will NEVER ease that pain. I mean hell, people die all the time. Us outsiders do not understandly care like the ones that are close, even though it happens all the time. Time will heal this wound. TRUST me. I use to want to kill myself over the things I did to Marissa, Shannon, Karina, Niki, Nikki, Cate, Cassie, Lauren, Tina, Amy, Aubrey. And that was all in highschool – I am 23 years old now. I still think of many of them. That was all from like 10th grade and up. It takes experiance to numb the pain. It also takes will power. No woman is worth dying for…It is their lose. I know hat sounds clich’e as Hell but it is true bro. Deep down you know I am right. Over 6 billion hunnies in the world. Are you the shy type? The non talker in class?
well believe it or not i’m just turning 24 in oct and i’ve been in a few serious relationships and they have came and gone and i got over it and never felt quite as bad as this, i guess i feel like i was cheated or somthing and its just bad cause she always shows up to work and i cant exactly just quit. I used to attend college but not anymore i just work full time due to my mother up and leaving with my little brother. And i suppose we all get shy sometimes? Im not so much anymore.
what a ho. you see where you fit in the conspiracy, right? she makes her old man jelous everytime she goes to work, he sits around all pissed off thinking she’s probly fucking you on the side and you’re worried thinkin dudes gunna kick your ass so your probly real polite to her making it all the more convincing; you’re a pawn. when she get’s mad at her boyfriend, she’l probly fuck you again if you’re nice to her.. I mean if you’re cool with being THAT guy, sounds like you’re not so..
I suggest you tell your boss she’s sexually harrassing you and get her fired. be like “ya, I’m just trying to work here and she keeps rubbing up on me and shit, making violent perverted advances under her breath and telling me she’s going to have her old man kick my ass if I don’t eat her **** in the broomcloset, and I’m just tryin to do my damn job, and I told her that, I think it’s really innapropriate and I feel violated and threatened and shit. some reason she thinks we have something going on, but I made it clear that we don’t and I don’t like being harrassed and hit on by this crazy nympho *****, also I seen her tell a customer she’d suck him off in the parking lot for money and he walked out appauled and said we lost his buisness.” or something more plausable to that end. I’m sure her old man would privately appreciate it, you’d be sticking up for yourself and get revenge, and she’d fuck off, betrayed and revealed to be a skank- which is fitting. everybody wins.
shit, i feel exactly the same man.. tired of feeling like a worthless piece of shit bro… gf of 6 yrs one day jus shuts me out.. no break up jus stops answerin calls an txt… like i dont fucking exist… sorry i dont have any advice but… shit bro i’m right here feelin like shit wit u